The Bedwarmer (BL)

14: The Truth

Hindi ko na alam kung ilang beses akong nakagat ni Ryan sa iba't-ibang bahagi ng katawan ko. I know I have bruises now. Maybe hickeys all over me. All I know is, pinaubaya ko ang sarili ko sa kanya. Hindi ako lumaban. Hindi iyon ang nakaplano. I had to go with the flow at huwag lumaban sa kanya.

"You will never leave my side again, Edrian. Now that I got the hold of you again." sambit niya pa habang nakapatong siya sa akin while I was lying upfront. Dinidilaan niya ang tenga ko and he was thrusting inside me like a crazed animal.

Wala na akong maramdaman. Siguro dahil sa nangingibabaw ang galit ko sa kanya. Everything feels like its nothing to me.

"You make me cum so easy.. That's what I love about you, Edrian." saad pa niya while still pounding me. My hands were tied with a rope and all I can do was submit to everything that he does.

Namalayan ko nalang ang panginginig niya and I know he was done fucking. Tumayo siya at tinungo banyo. Narinig ko ang pagshower niya sa loob at doon ko na pinakawalan ang mga luha na kanina ko pa gustong ilabas.

Matatapos din ito, Edrian. Kailangang tiisin mo ito.

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"Dito ka na titira sa aking penthouse. So I can have a watch over you. Ayokong lalapitan ka ng kahit na sinong lalaki. Maliban sa akin. Not even a woman can have a look at you."

"Don't you think its too much, Ryan? Kailangan mo akong ikulong dito?" bigla kong naibulalas while I was fixing myself in front of the mirror.

"Hindi ko hahayaan na mawala ka ulit sa akin, Edrian. You know how much I wanted to have you noon pa man. But you make me want to do the things that happened, dahil sa pambabalewala mo sa akin noon."

Napatingin ako sa kanya and I can see the rage in his eyes. Kita ko galit at pagkasuklam niya na hindi ko maintindihan.

"What are you talking about?" I am still clueless of what he was saying. Nagsindi siya ng isang stick ng sigarilyo at napasabunot sa kanyang ulo.

Lumapit siya sa akin at tiningnan niya ako ng matalim.

"Hindi iyon ang una nating pagkikita, that night that I put that sleeping pill in your drink. Matagal na kitang sinusundan. Matagal na kitang minamahal, Edrian."

He walked away from me and tried to hide his face. Hindi ko alam kung bakit niya sinasabi ang lahat ng ito.

"You were so popular in our University. Napakagaling mo sa academics. And you were a varsity in the volleyball team. Everyone wants to get close to you but you always shut them off. But I still tried. Sinubukan ko pa rin na kunin ang loob mo, baka sakaling maging akin ka. And I will be the happiest person on earth." sabi niya and I heard a crack in his voice.

"I always sent you boxes of chocolates pero rinireject mo lang iyon. I tried to get your number through a friend but you given someone else's number. And that was the point were I thought, if I can't have you in a romantic way.. Kukunin kita sa paraan na hinding hindi mo makakalimutan."

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman. I can remember everything that he was telling me. Marami akong admirers noong college and isa doon ang hindi talaga tumitigil sa pagkuha niya sa attention ko. At hindi ko alam na siya na pala ang taong 'yun.

"That's why you had to rape me, dahil hindi ko maibigay sa'yo ang hinihiling mo? Bakit ako? Bakit ako, Ryan?!" galit kong bulyaw sa kanya na kinalaki ng mga mata niya.

"Because I fucking love you!! Mahal na mahal kita, Edrian.. Kaya ko nagawa ang lahat ng iyon. You turned me like this because you made it hard for me to earn your love.."