I rode into the woods for what felt like hours until I came across a highway. I got off my horse and looked through the cars, tearing apart them one by one but then, my horse got spooked by something and ran off into the woods somewhere, presumably never to be seen again.
I rolled my eyes and huffed in frustration.
Whatever, maybe that'll distract some walkers or something.
I kept checking cars, hoping to find Louis or something that belonged to him until I came across a red car with a familiar pen in the cup holder in the front.
I grabbed the pen and inspected it for a little while and then looked around, up and down the highway.
"Louis?" I asked out loud but alas, there was no answer.
I put then pen back and turned around only to be face to face with a Walker which startled me, knocking me into the car as I grabbed the pen quickly and jabbed it into its eye, killing it instantly.
My eyes became weary from the past emotions held back, plus the lack of sleep, and the worry about my missing boyfriend, it scared me. It scared me so much.
Afterall, he was mute. If he was mute and got attacked by something, he couldn't really scream for help or anything.
God... this was all my fault. I should've stayed up or gone with him this morning or I could've tried harder to make him know that he's not useless or alone in any of this.
I took my hat off and placed it on the top of a car as I combed back the strands of loose hair and looked at the sun's position.
It was setting.
My stomach growled so I decided to look through more cars until I came across a car with one can of something which I ate for dinner, not caring about what it was.
I'd done this so many times on the road. Alone, with people, with Aj. It wasn't something that had affected me much anymore. Though it was a relief knowing I had a steady home to go back to when everything was over and done with.
I heaved my bag into a minivan after checking it's safety, then I climbed into it, shutting the doors and blocking the windows as best as I could, then I got as comfortable as I could've been in a car to get some sleep which didn't last very long because all I could think about was Louis but moreso, the regret I felt.
I felt regret that I didn't go with him this morning.
I felt regret that I didn't make him feel wanted enough to want to stay at the school.
I felt regret that we'd made every moment together some kind of lesson to be learned or spent the whole time begging for him to open up to me, even when I knew that's not at all what he needed from me.
I felt regret that neither of us had enough balls to make a move on each other.
That night in the greenhouse replayed in the head.
When we went out in the middle of the night, and he lifted me up onto a table and stood between my legs.
"I know what you want." he signed.
I insisted we'd go back to bed but before I could get too far, he grabbed my wrist-
I instantly felt butterflies in my stomach.
I closed my eyes and pictured what happened over and over again.
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back, pushing my back against the table.
"I know what you want." he signed again.
Then came the "what if" daydream.
He dipped his head down and pressed his soft lips against mine.

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~Please, Say You Won't Let Go~ Clouis
FanfictionThat night was a fever dream for both of the Ericson kids. Clementine had finally found someone she felt safe fully confiding in since she was 12 years old and Louis had finally found someone who would go to the ends of the earth if it meant protect...