Anong oras na, and I should be sleeping pero hindi ko magawa. I couldn't. Para bang may pumipigil sa akin, and I was a bit sure kung ano 'yun.
The art competition was earlier, and I wasn't sure if I did good enough. Laging ganito ang pakiramdam ko sa bawat art competition na sinasalihan ko, and kahit marami na 'yun ay hindi pa rin ako masanay sanay sa kaba na 'to. Bukas pa kasi ang results, kaya mas kinakain ako ng kaba.
The glow in the dark stickers plastered on my ceiling looked so amusing, kaya kahit paano ay nadadivert ko 'yung attention ko dun at hindi sa mga kung ano anong iisipin.
"Maybe I should've done better," I whispered to no one, sighing after.
My piece was once again inspired by him, as usual. This time, I drew the upper half of his face with his eyes reflecting an artist in her uttermost state of being passionate about her art. His hair was a deep black that is glittered with the stars, and surrounding him was the whole galaxy.
It could mean different things. Whether it was something that made people think na point of view niya 'yun, and that his world revolved around arts, or a different thing... the thing I was thinking of while making that piece.
It meant that he was my inspiration, my muse, and that he reflects every single one of my works. When I have him, I am at my best state, the most passionate I can become. The whole galaxy would mean beauty, meaning that with him, beauty surrounded me and my works. To cut it short, I am most passionate and overflowing with inspiration when I have him by my side.
I closed my eyes and sighed again. Would my message really be conveyed with that piece? Will my feelings reach to him, as I wished it would? I shook my head off of those thoughts. Masyado na akong maraming iniisip.
Stretching my limbs, I just covered myself with my blanket and tried once again to put myself to sleep.
Sana manalo ako, sana makaabot sa kanya ang nais kong ipahiwatig. Sana.
♡♡♡
"Ayako says she can't come with you para makita ang results, something came up... is it okay kung ako nalang ang sumama?"
I blinked, dahil paglabas na paglabas ko sa front door ay tumambad agad sa akin si Ten. I touched my beret hat, looking away dahil nahihiya ako.
Ayako namaaaan, you told me sasamahan mo ako kasi Venley can't!
Ten was wearing a black button up shirt, the first two unbuttoned. A pair of black ripped jeans hugged his legs, and his feet were in combat boots. Kung tatanungin ako, he looked so hot and badass right now. Pero I shouldn't be thinking like that. He's gonna see the results with me!
"Did she tell you na samahan ako?" I asked, my voice almost a whisper.
"No, I actually told her na I can do it, since hindi ka niya masasamahan," sagot naman niya, kaya napatingin agad ako sa kanya.
I was surprised. Hindi ba't nakakahiya naman? Saka... he knows I like him. Pinapaasa ba niya ako lately or sincere siya na gusto niya akong makasama sa bawat beses na magkasama kami? Nalilito na rin ako, pero hindi ko magawang maitanong sa kanya.
"Are you sure?" Tanong ko, and he flashed me his smile.
"Of course,"
"Uhm, thank you talaga, Ten. I'm just... nervous about the results kaya hindi ko kayang tignan na mag-isa."
"It's okay, I understand, ganyan rin ako,"
I gripped on my clutch bag tight, and then stepped out of my home. He gave me one last smile, bago kami sabay na naglakad.
I was so nervous. Although, hindi ko na alam kung bakit. Dahil ba sa results, o dahil dalawa lang kami ni Ten na magkasama ngayon?
Sai, calm down.
YOU ARE READING
hug me ♡ ten
Fanfiction[ nshitty series ] "hug me," in which she asked for a hug from him, but he wasn't one to give in so quickly. cover by @venleyy
