true colours | rosékook

that night

"I didn't know you came to Han River regularly too." chaeyoung said as they both were sitting on a comfortable enough spot on the river banks.

"I do." he said.

"what did you want to talk about?" she asked. jungkook looked at her. she wore a calm expression on her face but he could see the fear in her eyes. as if she was scared he's going to tell her something devastating.

"I talked to one of my friends who has lost his soulmate." he said. chaeyoung's calm face changed into worry and jungkook had a sudden urge to make that expression go away, although he found her furrowed eyebrows and big eyes cute. "he told me how is it after people break the bond."

"is he okay?" she asked. jungkook nodded and was mildly amazed how chaeyoung is still caring about other people while being in a mess herself.

"he told me a certain things that made me realize something." he carefully said and studied chaeyoung's face turn into a mix of curiosity, fear and anxiety.

"I'm not the type of person who shares his feelings, even with close friends. I shut people off whenever they start to break my walls. and I repress the hell out of my emotions." jungkook said. surprisingly, chaeyoung remained unsurprised.

chaeyoung saw how jungkook arched his eyebrow, probably because he was expecting some reaction from her. but who is going to tell him that he's not that difficult to figure out, especially by his own soulmate?

"you know, you're not as complicated as you're thinking you are." she said. jungkook chuckled. this was one of the few times she has heard him laugh. it's like a sweet melody.

"well, I wouldn't expect anything less from my soulmate." he said. there was a moment of comfortable silence between them before he spoke again.

"I also realized why I've been obsessing over breaking out bond." he said. "it's because I'm scared." 

chaeyoung tilted her head, and jungkook continued. "I was scared that I have to share my most happy, most vulnerable, the saddest, the hardest parts of life with someone. I was scared that someone will see the sides of me that I've never shown anyone. and I still am, I think."

he noticed that chaeyoung has started playing with her fingers again. it doesn't take an expert to figure out that this is her anxious habit. she has been doing it obsessively around him.

jungkook extended his hand to take one of hers into his. chaeyoung widened her eyes when he took her hand into his hold and intertwined their fingers together, the red string of fate visible on their little fingers.

"but…" he added. "maybe I want to share those with you."

chaeyoung didn't know if she was hearing it right.

"what?" she asked.

"maybe I want to show my best and worst sides. and maybe I want to see yours too." he said. "I don't know how I'm going to do it, this is too new for me. but I think maybe I'm not afraid anymore." 

jungkook had been avoiding chaeyoung's eyes till now, although he had her hand grasped in his. for some reason, it gave him peace and confidence.

"I know I've given you a hard time– I've felt it myself. and I don't know if you will forgive me yet. but I hope I get to spend the rest of my life making up to you for causing you so much pain." 

he didn't dare look at her yet, for he was scared to find out the answer. but soon, he felt a weight on his left shoulder. chaeyoung delicately rested her head on his shoulder, gripping his hand tighter.

"idiot." she said. "took you so long to realise this?"

he finally had the nerve to glance at her. when he did, he found her eyes glistening with tears.

"are you crying?" he asked, panicked. chaeyoung giggled.

"I'm just happy you're finally trying to accept your feelings."