The Unbreakable Thread

chapter 2: The lost soul

-Angela-

Standing on the edge of the railings, I look down and notice how high everything is from where I stand.

Sometimes I wonder how many seconds it'll take if I just jump off this building and die.

It's true when they say that dying is easier, living is harder. I glance up at the sky, its color purple mixed with orange. So peaceful.

I wonder what my mother is doing in heaven now? Would we see each other if I die too?

There was a feeling inside me that wanted to jump, but I felt strong winds pushing me back. That's something I couldn't understand.

I just wanted to end the suffering-

"Angela?" Jessy says behind me but I didn't bother to turn around. I heard a sigh escape her lips, I can also hear her footsteps coming closer. "Don't do it, please. Think about the people who care about you. Think about your dad."

That woke me up in reality. Dad.

I turn to her, and step down from the edge, the exact moment I stoop down was followed by one sway of winds. I gasp when I feel as if the cold wind wrapped me around me.

How did I end up here anyway? It started when they tore off the picture of my mother inside my journal. I snapped and wanted to push Margareth off the stairs but I was left speechless when she tripped herself and fell.

I could still hear her screams. How everyone glares at me as if I pushed her! I didn't!

"What happened here?!" Ms. Greenwood came, helping Margareth up. She wince in pain as she hold on to Ms. Greenwood.

"Angela pushed her. We saw it" Margareth's friend Beatrice said while narrowing her eyes at me.

My eyes widened and shook my head Immediately. "N-no I didn't! She tripped and fell-"

"Liar! You pushed her! You always hated Margareth when she was just trying to be nice to you!" Beatrice exclaimed.

Nice? Bullying me is they're way of being friendly?

What the hell was that?

"Ms. Reinhart, I will see you at the guidance's office." Ms. Greenwood said sternly.

But I didn't go there. Why should I own up to the consequences I never did?

I wanted to end my life there, Margareth's family are powerful, they can easily crush me and force me to take the blame. So I thought, how can they force me to lie if I'm no longer here?

If only Jessy didn't come.

"I'll try to help you out of this mess, don't worry-"

"No need. Let's just let it slide" I said tonelessly while staring at the wide oval field of the school. Everyone seems small from up on this rooftop.

If I go down there, everyone will say the exact same thing. They will do worse to me than before, now that the news is spreading that I pushed Margareth, they will be more aggressive to me than they usually were.

I really can't take a break from this life.

"But Ms. Greenwood will insist on it and you might be expelled if you don't defend yourself."

"Then so be it. It's not like I never seen worst of it"

She sighed moving beside me. She focused her attention on the field the same as I am. We watched in silence, everyone was having fun. They were playing soccer, while there were cheerleaders practicing in front of the bench away from the players.