Unhealed wounds ➣ Drarry ; Scorbus

Chapter one

«Father, may I ask you something?»

One week had passed. A whole, entire week.
And Scorpius had already finished reading his father's old diary. Twice or maybe even five times. He had done his homework during the first month of summer, the nerd he was.

In three days they were coming back to Hogwarts and he was afraid of bringing the diary with him, since Albus and him shared the room in the dormitory and he could have found it. He wasn't planning to carry him. So he wanted to learn it by heart, or a least, the best passages and phrases, before leaving it in their new house.

"I hate how easily you could forget me while I always need to remind myself to forget you.„

«Scorpius, how many times do I have to tell you I prefer if you call me dad, and not father?» Draco said and his lips opened in a sad, melancholic smile.

The white-haired boy knew it that he hated it, being called that way. It reminded him of his childhood, his abusive father, Lucius and how he used to hit him whenever he called him "Dad", even when he was a toddler.

«Sorry, dad. It's just a refle-»

«Reflex, I know» the now young adult sat down on his son's bed, watching him as he takes sit on the chair in front of his desk. The sixteen-year-old was finishing packing when he had called Draco to his chamber «Malfoys' hereditary»

A little smile appeared on Scorpius' face. However he couldn't be distracted from his goal. He needed to ask him, it was now or never.

"You make my heart break just as much as you make it full. You bruise my heart just as much as you patch it up. You love my heart just as much as you hate it. It's like, I showed you the parts of me that hurts, and you twisted your knives in them„

«So before you continue packing for Hogwarts, what's the question you would like to ask me?»

Come on, Scorpius. You can do this. Albus always says you're strong, you're brave. Imagine him next to you, saying those things. Would you let him down?

And with an inhuman calm, he whispered, «Have you ever liked a boy, dad?»

"I left you because you were trying to find my flaws while I was overlooking yours. You always tried to play the victim while you were hurting me„

Much to Scorpius surprise, his father smiled. But time it was even more melancholic than the last one, «You have found my diary, haven't you, Scorpion?» However he didn't seem angry or upset. The only emotion passing through his piercing mercury eyes was an incredible, hurting, sadness, «You have read it, haven't you?»

The white-haired boy just nodded.

«I'm glad you did, I wouldn't have know how to explain it to you with words,» the slim, tall boy gasped at his words, «What? You think I would get mad? It was the right time, Scorpius. I have written on it since the start of the fifth year until...the end of the war, the seventh»

The teenager sighed. For the first time, he was without words. He didn't know what to say, «Now that you're going to attend the sixth, I think it was the right time for you to know the truth, or at least, to know who your father was, before all of this happened».

Scorpius wanted to hug his father. However he didn't know if he would have liked it, so he stayed motionless, sitting on the wooden chair like a statue.

«So...you and Harry Potter were in love?»

The room fell silent and two whole minutes passed before Draco spoke again,

«We were way too young to know what love was. But I swear whenever he said my name,  It felt like a sweet melody like I have never heard before. That's how you know it is so special. Because the first time my name left his mouth, something so simple became so much more.»

"Tell me you hate me and maybe then it'll be easier to get over you„

«But then you married mum, dad. You had me. And Harry Potter married Ginny Weasley,» Scorpius felt so confused, so numb, yet so relieved.

Could this explain how he felt about...Albus?

«It's all right to love someone who doesn't love you back, as long as they're worth you loving them. As long as they deserve it» Draco had interrupted him.

«But from what I read you two really-» he hesitated. He didn't know to ruin everything, to ruin the intimate moment his father and him were having «And James, Albus, Lily-»

«What about you, my Scorpion, how do you feel about boys?»

He didn't reply and the room fell to silence once again.

"But you don't know how it feels to lay in bed in the darkness with a heavy chest because your heart hurts so much while tears stream down your face, thinking about everything that is going wrong in your life and you have no one to talk to and all you pray is that you want the pain to end. You don't know how it feels to wish to die."

«I really don't know, dad» Scorpius felt light-headed, weightless for a second when he spoke. He didn't know how many minutes had passed «I don't know»

Draco got up from the bed.

"I lost my words at the edge of the world. I saw them go down the end, into a deep crevice where they hide and wait for reality to fade. I want my world back to what it was before you said the words, "I don't love you anymore"„

That was the first time he hugged his son.