Days With You

Chapter 13

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Day 65: Drowned

Margaux's POV

My life is a puzzle, and I don't know what to do anymore.

Una, yung palaging nagbibigay sakin ng bulaklak. Hindi ko alam kung matatakot ako, matutuwa o kikiligin. Well seriously it's quite sweet, but on the other hand I feel creepy.

And their kiss.. It's just so distracting. I can't erase it on my mind. It's always playing it in my head everytime and every-fvcking-where. And I'm so confused and fvcked up with my feelings with Thorn.

He's really a Thorn on the rose. Because on the first look, it's so beautiful to see but when you hold it, you didn't even notice that you're already hurting yourself.

It's almost one week but here I am, still confused and messed up. Sa sobrang gulo ng isip at nararamdaman ko pati sarili at kwarto ko nadadamay ko na sa mga nangyayari.

Nagugustuhan ko na ba talaga siya these past few weeks? Oh noes.

I can't like him, right Margaux?

[ RING!!! ]

I lazily picked up my phone then press the green button.

"Hey bitch, walang-wala ka na talagang plano sa buhay mo?"

"Yeah, I'm so messed up right now. And I just don't know what to do with my decisions, problems, and with myself."

"Why, what happened? Ang akala lang namin ay walang-wala ka na talagang magawa sa buhay mo sabi ni Tita. But.. Oh come on Margaux, spill it up!"

"Not here, Elizabeth."

"Fine, here at our building."

"Oh shut up, you know I don't have a car."

"Take a cab."

Napailing nalang ako ng biglang binaba ni Sabet ang linya. Should I really spill my problems to her? Oh dang.

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"Hey."

"Oh my.. What happened to your face?!"

Agad naman akong natawa nang hawakan ni Sabet ang mga maleta na nakasabit sa mga mata ko.

"You're overreacting--"

"Over reacting?! Of course! Ni hindi kita makitang pinapabayaan ang mukha mo! Hindi ka nagkaka-eyebags sa tanang buhay mo ngayon lang! Aba malamang magiging OA talaga ako Menaide!"

"So sinasabihan mo ba ang sarili mo o ako--"

"Oh shut up I don't have time for your jokes. Lets be serious here, Margaux. Come on." Napailing nalang ako ng bigla niya kong hilain sa kusina, pinaupo at pinaghandaan ng pagkain sa lamesa.

Oh right.

"You eat first before we talk--"

"I'm full, you know I just ate my breakfast a while ago." Inirapan naman ako nito at agad na tinakpan ang inihain sakin. "Okay, now spill." Napabuntong hininga naman ako agad sa salitang sinabi niya.

I'm not ready.

"Eliza, To be honest I'm not ready to spill my problems. I'm so confused.."

"Okay I get it you just said that a while ago. Pero hindi mo naman ata sasabihin sakin na 'Not here, Elizabeth' kung hindi ka ready na ikwento yung problema mo, right?" Agad naman akong natawa sa pagiging deretso niya.