Dear Diary, // L.S

24.Dear Friends,

Dear Diary,
I can nearly wrap my fingers around my upper arm. That's a big improvement.

But that's not why I'm talking to you. I've been gone for a while sorry!

I really wasn't in the mood to write or do anything really. I think I'm failing in school.

Anyways let's give a summary for my biographer. Nah I'm kidding no one's gonna want to read that.

So this past month not alot happened. Same old shit different day as they say.

I fought with dad a couple of times. I visited mom for a weeknd but she acted like something bad was about to happen all the damn time. Boy did that get on my nerves!

I'm still in touch with Amora and Sky but don't really take it out of school.
I see Ned and Harry alot. They make me feel ok. They don't judge me.
Well Amora and sky don't judge me either. I just don't feel as comfortable around them.
The boys are more mature. I sometimes think if me hanging out with them is weird because they're older than me but they dont seem to mind.

Harry once told me he likes me more than Ned and got smacked on the head. It was pretty funny.

They've been friends for two years and live together. That's how they met actually. Pretty Chandler and Joey if you ask me. Although I can't decide who's who.

Overall I'm not the worst. But I'm really not happy. I'm drained.
I keep trying to think of ways to get myself back. Be happy and energetic. But it just doesn't work. So when I fail at that, I self harm and then I feel even more miserable.

It helps! It really does but sometimes I look at myself and I feel disgusting. I already had a really bad body and now it's all that shit plus the scars. I can't seem to wear anything tight anymore. I'm drowning in my hoodies and shirts. And also I wear baggy pants now. Suprise! I do still wear skinny jeans if my shirts big enough though. It's a whole weird algorithm.

Diary you're the only one that I can fully trust and I wanna thank you for that.