Dear Diary,
I spent a day with Harry. Yes alone.
Do you remember when I told you it's easy to be around Ned? It's easier to be around Harry.
Everything is natural. I'm not afraid to act how I want. I can throw my head back and laugh like an idiot.
I can cling onto him for as long as I want and he just keeps talking to me like we're sitting next to eachother.
I can boop his nose. I can hold his hand. I can mess with his hair. I can talk about my most bizarre thoughts and he just listens and sometimes even adds more.
These words are coming from someone who doesn't let anyone look at their face too closely because he's afraid of what they'll see.
You know when I'm with Harry I feel confident yet so insecure.
When I tell a joke he looks at my eyes and smiles so big and I feel so empowered but at the same time I look down because I don't want him to keep looking and seeing how dark the circles under my eyes are.
We talked about self harm. He asked me why I do it. He's asked me a few times now but I think he never understands the logic behind it.
It's ok though. At least I know he's trying to get it right.
I was half sleep with my head on his shoulder when he poked my hand with his pinky.
/
+Promise me.
-Hum?
+Promise me you won't do it.
-Do what?
+Hurt yourself.
-Harry...
+Promise me.
-I promise I'll try.
+Ok. Promise you'll try your best.
/
Diary if you talked to me about any kind of sexual or physical act a few months ago I would freak out.
But now I want to kiss Harry. I want to kiss him so bad and last night I realized how shitty it is that I might die and never know how that feels.
YOU ARE READING
Dear Diary, // L.S
General Fiction[𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒅] "Goodbyes hurt when the story is not finished and the book has been closed forever." No one listens to him so he pours his heart out in a diary. ~ short-ish story !!!Trigger warnings in the prologue!!!
