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What I keep in mind when I design my Season Personifications(Vent or rant thing)

I just really wanted to get this off my chest

I'm feeling really stressed right now, about my characters, the fact I still don't have a Deviantart account, my art, and so much more, but imma just let this off my shoulders

So a day or two ago, I realized something while thinking about my Season Personifications. I remembered the definition of a season, a period of time in a year characterized by specific weather(or something like that), that then made me realize, Winter is not a season about snow or ice and stuff, its when its simply colder than normal. Same for Summer, not about beaches and sunburns, just hotter than normal. And Autumn and Spring are just transitional seasons, not necessarily just about orange leaves and flowers. 

Note the word 'normal', cuz normal changes with Earth's global climate, so do the seasons. take like... a few thousand years ago, during the last Ice Age, you'd think its just an all year winter, but then it would mean the Earth's no longer tilting. The Seasons still were a thing there, but this time the 'normal' was the Earth covered in snow and glaciers. So Winter back then just meant really cold while Summer was a little less snow, and, again, Autumn and Spring are just transitional.

And another thing, I thought about what each season was like in other places. Like maybe in temperate areas Spring is indeed about flowers and greenery and stuff but what about Spring... in a tundra. Cuz like, most people will just be like "its just basically Winter" but its not, tundras still go through the seasons, but in its own way. Again, like the Ice Age example, during winter its probably cold and dry there but in summer its not as cold and low humidity(I forgot the weather in tundras sry)

So... basically... Personifying a season... is bullcrap... at least in my opinion. Theres too many variations, the only reason people and mythologies were able to do it is because they had limited knowledge, they were personifying the version of a season in their area.

by now I'm just rambling on and on but then again its almost midnight here and I'm stressed out af

And I know I can just ditch this bullsh!t and go with the flow but I can't, maybe its the desires to stand out from others, to have my creations stand out from the ones of others just like the characters of who I admire

Ya know, after typing this, I have to be honest... I'm starting to hate my characters... I overthink, I compare, I overwork myself and I f*cking hate it

And even if this sounds like a damn over dramatization its true, I stress myself out over the f*cking hairstyles of my characters, I stress myself out over their personalities, I stress out about not being as good of a storyteller as those I look up to which causes me to rush things and push my creative limits too far

sometimes I feel I should just give up on my characters, either because my stories are not going to go well or because I'll abandon them anyway for me to find when I'm like 20 and call it 12 year old bullsh!t

great

great

this started out as me explaining how my Season Personifications work to me ranting about my creative problems

great

just great

I really need sleep

good thing this damn lockdown thing is ending in about 2 or 3 days