Better Off | A Sidemen Fanfic

Chapter 8

I wake up from my alarm. I completely forgot it was Monday. I get up and go in the shower. The shower was pretty warm so I turn it colder and colder, just so I can feel something.

I get out and put my school uniform on. I don't bother with my hair but I do put some makeup on. I go downstairs, say goodbye to my mum and grab an apple before leaving the house.

Simon: Hey!

Me: You're still gonna walk with me?

I bite into the apple and walk down the drive way.

Simon: You know, too many apples can kill you.

Me: Shame I didn't grab more.

Simon: Don't be stupid. Anyways do you wanna hand out after school?

Me: No thanks.

Simon: Are you trying to avoid me?

Me: No, it's just sometimes it's better to be alone.

Simon: Why?

Me: Nobody can hurt you.

Simon: But I won't hurt you.

Me: But I will.

We carry on walking in silence. Just the sound of me eating my apple. Ever since I turned 14 I've had no emotion. Well I did have emotions, I just hid them well.

We get to school and Simon goes to the guys. I just walk straight into school and go to my first lesson, English. I sat next to Vik in English so as soon as he got in he began to speak to me.

Vik: Hey Kaylee, sorry for sending you home yesterday.

Me: Oh that's ok Vik, don't worry about it.

Vik: Alright. Are you ok?

Me: People can't always be perfect because that's not real, is it?

Vik: Well I don't think anyone is close to perfect. Because perfect means they haven't made any mistakes in their life. So yes it's not real.

Me: Thanks Vik.

We start learning about Romeo and Juliet and about their love towards each other. I then nod off into a sleep.

Teacher: Kaylee!

I jump awake and look at the teacher.

Teacher: What's your opinion of love?

Me: Love, love, love. What's it good for? Absolutely nothing.

Teacher: Well have you ever been in love? What does it feel like? 

I look at Simon who was looking at me from the other side of the room. The whole class was looking at me actually. I keep my eyes on Simon and say,

Me: Its a bit of a head fuck to be honest, not simple.

Teacher: Right so would you say your opinion towards love is different than Romeos and Juliets?

Me: Well miss, i don't think I'd ever get deeply in love with an 18 year old when I was 13 and I'm definitely not that stupid to kill myself for a 4 day relationship. So yes Miss, my opinion towards love is different.

Teacher: Thank you Kaylee. Right Simon what do you think about it?

Simon: About what?

Teacher: Your opinion of love.

Simon: You can take anything if you want it enough. Romeo took Juliets love knowing the consequences because he knew that's what he wants.

He glances over at me. I just smile at him. He really does want me. The bell rings and we go to second period.

Simon: Hey, hows that head fuck of yours going?

Me: What are you on about.

Simon: You said loves like a head fuck. You obviously meant it at me because you were looking at me the whole time.

Me: That's because I like you Si.

Simon: Yeah well I like you too.

We get to our next lesson and I sit down. I then get my phone out and hide it under the table. My mum sent me a message so I clicked on it.

Mum: I'm coming to pick you up

Me: But why

Mum: I'll tell you when we are home.

I get called down to reception a few minutes later. I see my mum standing looking like she's just stopped crying.

Me: Mum what's going on?

She just turns around and goes to the car. I follow her and get in. The car drive was pretty silent apart from the faint sound of the radio. We get home and my mum sits on the sofa.

Mum: Take a seat honey.

I sit down next to her.

Mum: Your father got murdered last night. The police have just told me, said that he got into a lot of trouble and got on the wrong side of people.

Me: So he's dead?

Mum: Yes honey.

Me: And you're sad about that?

Mum: What are you talking about?

Me: The shit he's put us both through. He deserves this mother. He fucking raped you how many times? How many times has he hit my? I'm not sad at all mum.

Mum: You should be sad. He brought you up.

Me: He brought me up and showed me every boy is the same. I'll never forgive him for that. You know that mum, that's why I don't keep boys.

Mum: But your dad was nice.

Me: He was only nice when he wasn't drunk, and when was that? Never.

Mum: Well he's dead now.

Me: Good. I don't give a shit. God can send me to hell with him for saying this but I don't care. He deserves it.

I start to get annoyed at my mum and storm up the stairs. She fucking pisses me off. I don't care that dads dead, he fucking abused us both.

I wake up after accidentally falling asleep. I checked my phone for the time and it was 4:34. I also had loads of messages from the boys. I just put my phone down and ignore it.

A few minutes later my phone starts to buzz. I pick it up and see Simon tried to call me. I call him back and he sounds quite worried.

Simon: Kaylee, where did you go at school and why have you been ignoring us all.

Me: Oh I had a doctors appointment that's all.

Simon: Ok, are you alright? Do you wanna come out with us guys?

Me: nah I'll just stay home. Thanks anyways. I'll see you tomorrow maybe.

Simon: Maybe?

I quickly end the call so I don't have to talk to him again. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow and my mum did say before I can have a few weeks off so that's what imma do.