Better Off | A Sidemen Fanfic

Chapter 17

Today is day 6 of being in hospital. I had my surgery on day 3 and now I'm in recovery. It is actually really cold in hospital so my mum brought me a few blankets.

My mum went home yesterday, she said she has to go get some things done at home. So I've just been on my own with the occasional nurse coming in to check my stats.

I usually slept most the time. I thought about shit what happened when I was kidnapped and then about what Simon said to me.

Anyways I wake up after about a 2 hour nap to see exactly who I was talking about. Simon was sat on a chair next to my bed. I slide up the bed to try and get away from he and he just looks up at me.

Me: Get out.

I say slightly. He doesn't he just sits there with his arms on his knees and his hands holding his chin up.

Me: Get out!

I raised my voice. I don't want him here. I began to try and take all the wires off me because I didn't want to be in the room with Simon.

He just moves his arm and grabs my hand to stop me from pulling all the wires out of me. Just the touch calmed me down so all my muscles relaxed and I lie back down on the bed.

Me: Why are you here?

He just stays silent, still holding my hand. He doesn't look at me though, he just looks at the wires around my body.

Me: I'm sorry for coming back into your life. I didn't know you were happy.

He just tuts and turns his head away from me. I slowly slide my hand away from his because it was quite awkward.

Simon: I never stopped loving you Kaylee.

He says between his teeth.

Me: I'm sorry.

I felt the need to apologise even though it had nothing at all to do with me. Well it did but they were his feelings which I couldn't control. He looks back at me and into my eyes.

Simon: I broke up with Laura.

He said softly.

Me: Why?

Simon: Because she was stealing my money like you said.

Me: I'm sorry Simon.

Simon: Will you stop fucking apologising for once.

He says through his teeth again and he sounded quite angry. I whisper sorry with a smile on my face.

He just looks at me and a smile grows on his face as well. It wasn't a 'haha smile', it was more like a 'are you fucking serious smile'. Kind of like a 'I'm going to kill you smile'. 

Simon: I'm going to get a drink from the vending machine, do you want anything?

Me: They do these really nice smoothies. Can you get me one of them.

He nods and walks out the room. Why the fuck has he come to see me. Why the fuck has he broke up with Laura.

He comes back with my drink that I asked for. I noticed the lid had already been taken off and tightly put back on. Is he trying to drug me? In a hospital?

Regardless I take the lid off and pretend to drink some of it. I noticed Simon's eyes were fixed on me drinking. I move it away from my lips and put the lid back on.

Me: You should try some. It's really nice. I think they've upgraded it, it tastes a lot better from last time.

Simon: No thanks.

Me: Go on. It's really nice.

He picks it up and realises I had hardly drank any. I just look at him and smile. The same way he looked at me before.

Simon: You've hardly drank.

Me: Yeah. I'm not that thirsty.

Simon: Are you hungry?

He says trying to change the subject.

Me: No. I want to go to sleep though, can you leave without trying to kill me please.

He looks at me shocked so I just wink at him.

Simon: What are you on about?

Me: What did you put in my drink Simon?

I ask dead serious. He just ignores the question and sits back in the chair.

Me: I'm not stupid you know. I know I haven't done my GCSES but that don't make me stupid. Now if you don't mind I would like you to leave.

He just stays in his chair now with his hand by his mouth playing with his lips. He was getting anxious.

Me: What's the matter Simon?

Simon: I've missed you.

He whispers. He doesn't miss me, he wouldn't have put something in my drink if he did. I just laugh through my nose.

Simon: So you don't believe me?

Me: Why should I? You've given me no reason to believe you.

Simon: Well I do. I never stopped thinking about you Kaylee. I felt so bad for me saying that shit to you and with Laura. I should have believed you but I just lashed out.

Me: You almost killed me.

Simon: But I didn't.

Me: You almost did! That's why I'm here Simon. Why are you being like this?

Simon: I don't believe it's you. I fully thought you were dead. You were gone for 6 months. 6 months of me panicking, of me caring.

Me: You think I can help that? You think that if I could have escaped I would have.

Simon: No. I understand now, you were doing it to protect yourself.

I just stay silent for a bit and so does Simon. He just looks at me and the wires around me so I look at him. His face and his features. But I began to feel my eyelids slowly close. The last think I heard before falling off into a deep sleep was the smoothing words of "I love you"