Rebellious

Chapter 1

𝐈𝐧𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

𝘉𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘰𝘯 𝘑𝘢𝘯𝘶𝘻

"Sigurado ka bang okay ka lang diyan Bran? I mean ilang buwan mo na kaming hindi tinatawagan, Shamara is also worried baka ano ng nangyari sa'yo."sita sa akin ni Caden habang ako heto nakaharap sa aking laptop, yeah Italy is really fine but to tell you?

I am so fucked up to the point that I didn't even manage to call my brothers and even inform Shamara what is happening to me right now. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako mag sisimula at kung saan ako huhugot ng lakas para harapin siya.

"I am fine, tell her that I need more time to cope up. Hindi pa ako handang harapin siya."diretsong sagot ko rito rason para mapatango si Achilles ganun din si Grayson.

"Brandon tapatin mo nga kami. Ikaw ba okay ka lang talaga o nag sisinungaling ka lang sa amin?"it was Caden who asked that question, napabuntong hininga na lamang ako at linamukos ang aking buhok.

"I am fucked up, I still can't fucking move on from this fucking dilemma I am facing. I am trying but I guess I am still stuck."wala na akong nagawa kundi ang umamin sa kanila, after all they are my brothers (not by blood) and even if I lie they can still read me like an open book.

"It's almost nine fucking months but I am still searching for my courage to face Shamara without my heart beating like crazy, the feelings were still here and fuck it for having this. It's fucking hard!"I muttered without holding back, it's now or never.

I wanted to burst out as I kept these hidden words inside for almost months. Ni wala akong kinausap sa kanila sa loob ng siyam na buwan, I stayed here without even answering their emails, phone calls, or even Shamara's letters.

Wala 'eh, hindi ko maatim na kausapin ang kahit sino dahil sa nararamdaman kong ito.

"Don't be hard on yourself Brandon, I am sure time will heal your wounds. Hindi ka namin pipilitin na kausapin si Shamara kung hindi ka pa handa, basta ang amin lang huwag mong pabayaan ang sarili mo."Achilles said, bigla namang hinampas ni Caden ang kanyang kamay sa table at humarap ng marahas sa monitor ng laptop.

"That's it Brandon Januz! We will be there in a short period of time,"he declared before he hang up.

Napamura na lamang ako dahil 'don, I was too fucking fucked up and I am sure they will be here to accompany me.

Kahit na sinabi ko sa kanila na kakayanin ko mag-isa, napaka-OA pa naman nila lalong lalo na si Caden. Kaya bago pa mangyari 'yun, I will try my best to be better now. I need to get rid of my feelings and move on without making them feel that I can't do it.

I've been through a lot of pain and despair, lahat ng iyon nakayanan ko without ang help from somebody else. Kung susumahin nga this is just part of something that I created and I am the one at fault for falling so deeply, hence, loving Shamara is not a mistake.

I will blame it all to our differences and destiny itself, siguro hindi talaga kami para sa isa't isa. We are bound to meet but not meant for each other. That is why I am trying to divert these anguish inside in order to get rid of this tenderness on my chest every time I see or hear her name.

'Cause right now, the burden is still here and I cannot do anything because it's my natural feelings. It's part of my thoughts and part of my emotions. I silently stood up from my chair and went inside the bathroom, as I stare at the mirror I can clearly see how everything have changed.

Blood shot eyes, long hair, unwanted stubbles, and gloomy gaze.

Fuck, it feels like I am not staring at myself right now, ganun ba talaga kalakas ang tama ko at napabayaan ko ng ganito ang aking sarili? How can love be this cruel? Ganun ba talaga pag nag mahal ka? All my life I already planned everything, I wanted to marry Shamara and have kids.

Napayapos na lamang ako at inayos ang aking tindig, that's right, I need to change, I need to be brave and fucking move on from everything. Walang mangyayari kung magiging ganto ang set-up ko dahil hindi mapapsaakin si Shamara. She's now happy with the her love of her life and I also need to be happy for her and most especially to my self.

Without myself knowing I grab my shaving cream along with my razor before I get rid of my unwanted stubbles. Change starts from your style, kaya naman minabuti kong linisin ang aking mukha para mas maaliwalas akong tignan pag dating nina Caden.

I tug my hair behind my ears as I took a bath and changed into something decent, lately I've been drinking a lot. Getting wasted and fucking my own life like a real asshole.

Maybe this is my turning point, maybe this is really the sign that in order to grow and in order to get over is to face my fear and deal with it. Even if it pains me I don't have any choice but to do it. Slowly but surely.

I will get over you Shamara, mark my words.

𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐑 (𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃!)

For those who thought that Hani is Faith on Mafia Boss' Obsession yes, she is, but I have changed her role in the series creating a new character that will suit her. Not to mention I removed Faith in Mafia Boss' Obsession franchise especially in Book Version and Revamped version. So Faith is no longer alternative in both, sa original version na lang siya makikita but will remain as a filler character who doesn't have any portrayer.

Hani is also suitable because she has this strong charisma which can be translated to Yumera's character.

Hence for those who still crave for Brandon's happy ever after lalong lalo na sa Shamara x Brandon stans (Jiyeon and Jaebum), you can check my reverse universe novels!

It's for second leads! Hehehe!