Rebellious

Chapter 34

𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐈 𝐀𝐬𝐤

𝘠𝘶𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘢

I silently rose from our bed wrapping my naked body with this sheets, I stare at Brandon with gloom feeling my heart shatter upon witnessing how he soundly sleep right in front of me. Brandon claimed me once again but I will consider this as our last night together as I will leave him.

Now that I told him what I feel our deal is automatically off, gaya ng napagusapan namin wala dapat sa aming dalawa ang mahuhulog o mag mamahal dahil parte ito ng kasunduan.

I will take my responsibility and accept my defeat now that I know that I will never win against Shamara.

That is why before anything else, I will now leave silently without any trace. I will no longer bother Brandon as I will also try to bury our memories together because that is the right thing to do━to forget about him and start a new life without him.

I might left my heart from here but I will just pretend that I had it all along. I will try my best to move on.

I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what's coming next
Or scared of having nothing left

I silently cry while caressing Brandon's face, memorizing his manly features for the last time. I maybe be a coward for not telling you what I feel earlier but this is the best way...to leave you alone.

Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use

At least I had this last night to spend with you my love, the last memory that I will hold unto until I die in vain. Siguro hindi na ako mag mamahal pang muli pagkatapos nito pero nagpapasalamat parin ako dahil kahit papaano naranasan ko kung paano ang mag mahal.

Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?

"I love you way too much that is why I will leave you, I will leave you to find the happiness you yearn for the long time. I am setting you free Brandon. I am letting you go to love anyone you want."I mumbled those words like sipping a poison. My chest tightens uttering those words but what can I do? This is my fate, this is what destiny wants us to be.

I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes
And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?

Siguro nga'y tama sila, na kahit mahal na mahal mo 'yung tao kung 'di para sa'yo, 'di para sa'yo.

Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask isIf this is my last night with you
Hold me...

Na kahit na mag lupasay pa ako rito ay wala na akong magagawa pa, I cannot control everything. Napapikit ako ng mariin kasabay ng pagkahulog ng mga luhang kumakawala mula sa aking mga mata.

Marahas akong napabuntong hininga at nag mamadaling nag tungo sa banyo upang mag palit na ng aking damit. I need to leave before the dawn breaks.

Ayaw kong makita pa ako ni Brandon na narito dahil alam kong magiging marupok na naman ako at hindi ko makakayanan ang bugso ng aking damdamin. I won't allow that to happen. I will leave before everything turns into something hideous. As I fade away from the dark, I also yearn my feeling to fade...for good.

𝐊𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐛𝐮𝐤𝐚𝐬𝐚𝐧

Mabilis akong umalis ng Switzerland sa gabing iyon, ni hindi ko ininda ang pagod na aking nararamdaman dahil sa sobrang sakit ng nasa aking dibdib. It feels like I am suffocated standing in the same ground with Brandon kaya mabilis akong nag paalam kay Shamara via call na may urgent meeting ako kahit na wala naman. I lied to her that I need to leave right away because I have a client to meet with. I also called Vanessa and told her everything that happened.

"So anong plano mo ngayon? Paano kung puntahan ka niya rito? Lalo na't may spare key siya."Van said.

"I won't allow that Vanessa, I never wanted to see him again because it will be harder to forget him if that happens. Now that I confessed I am sure that he will loathe me entirely, so before anything else I wanted to disappear completely from his sight."I retorted.

"Mera baka nabibigla ka lang, what if you wait for his response? Malay mo nag bago na ang kanyang isip?"she mumbled but I violently tilted my head sideways.

"No, this is the right thing Van. I know Brandon and I am sure that he will no longer want to see me because I broke our deal. Kung nakita mo lang siguro kung paano siya magalit ng malaman niyang nag punta ako 'don sa kasal ni Shamara, he is mad because he is afraid that Shamara might learn what is between us. Ayaw niyang malaman ni Shamara ang namamagitan sa aming dalawa."nang hihinang sagot ko rito.

"Yumera,"

"I will leave Italy for good, I have decided. I will go back to the Philippines to start a new life and move on from Brandon. I will tackle my Papa's business, pero itong boutique gusto kong kayo na ni Athena ang mag manage habang ako ay nasa Pilipinas."I declared.

"Mera, hindi mo naman kailangang gawin 'to."

"Hindi ko naman sinasabing hindi na ako babalik rito kahit kailan, all I ask is I wanted to take a break. I will just heal my heart and I will return here when I am ready to face everything. Mag papahinga lang ako for the mean time pagkatapos ay babalik rin ako rito Vanessa. Babalik ako. Babalikan ko ang pangarap ko."I sadly mumbled, tuluyan na akong napaiyak kasabay ng pag bitaw ko ng mga salitang 'yun. Vanessa wrapped her arms around me giving me strength to face my pain.

O sino 'yung timang na umiiyak habang nag susulat lol! OMG I can't sleep I wanted to end Yumera's story right away! So please bear with my grammatical errors for the mean time Thank you!