Endlessly (Lisrene)

Ch. 16

Jisoo's POV

After the 'agrument' in just 2 minutes they are laughing together. My sisters are crazy. I understand Lisa if she misses our bonding together, specially when in a time like this we were here in the living room, playing together and teasing each other. Good old days.

The two stopped when we heard the doorbell. I think the Baes are here. I look at Chaeng, she seems sad and I know the reason why. She like her bestfriend, oh let me correct that mistake. She loves her bestfriend, my sister. It hurts doesn't it? The only person you like, is already in love with somebody else and the worse is she's in love with my sister. I'm not mad because of that. I'm hurt, yeah I didn't expect I'd fall for Chaeng like this. I thought it's just a crush.

I don't know what's the real deal between Lisa and Irene, I've seen Irene being clingy with Seulgi which is it bothers me. Is this a fucking joke? I'm not hatin' on Irene, I really do like her for Lisa because she makes my sister happy. When she went back here, she's not like that. You know Lisa obviously likes her, but she's just afraid to admit it, same as Irene. The way she looks at my sister, I knew she likes her. It bothers me coz what if Lisa will hold back again because of Seulgi. She's Lisa of course will give up everything for Seulgi. Just like Jennie. I know how much she loved Jennie, she's checking up on her from time to time. I was following Jennie because my sister asked me to do so. Through facetime I felt how sad she was, she doesn't want to be there. I can't bare to see her like that again. Not again.

Seulgi and I had a huge fight when Lisa moved to US, not physically but those words came out from her mouth hurt me. Lisa is such a nice person and good fucking sister, she will do everything for Seulgi for pete's sake, then here comes Seulgi being a complete bitch. She thinks we're picking Lisa's side. I don't know what will happen if Lisa and Seulgi are both into Irene. Hoping Lisa will do the right decision. Not the right decision for others, but for herself. And the reason why I'm always with Lisa, I want to always check up on her, she's a weakass person, yes she can fight, she can swing but her heart is fucking weak when it comes to us. That's why she didn't even touch Seulgi even though she's being rude to her. Because she understand her. Aish! Lisa I want you to stand up for yourself.

When the Baes came in, they greeted us then Irene hugged Lisa tightly, same as Ryujin and Yeji. I averted my gaze to Chaeng who's look hurt. I stood up and covered her eyes.

"Don't look, you're just hurting yourself more" I whispered. I felt a water on my hand, she's crying. Fuck it! It hurts to see her like this. I need to do something. Thank God they are busy with each other "You want to get out of here?" I asked as I removed my hand and wipe her tears. She simply nods. I will take her somewhere. When we reach the place

"What are we doing here Chu?" I drove her here in Lisa's favorite place

"This is Lisa's favorite place"

"Then why did you bring me here?"

"Because I want you to leave it all here. I know you don't want to tell Lisa about your feelings because you don't want to lose your best friend. This place may not be her" I paused as chuckled "But atleast let Lisa's favorite place hear everything you want to tell her" She giggles Ugh! She looks like an angle, my angel.

"You're weird but I like it" Weird? Is that a compliment? Hmmm. Well I'll take that as a compliment since it's from Rosé.

"And cute Rosé" I added she shake her head and smiled. "Let's sit there"

"Spill, I'm all ears and this place" I said. Chaeng facepalmed herself

"This place has no ears" She laughs. I'm glad I can make her laugh at a time like this. After, her expression becomes serious

"I'm in love with your sister for 3 years secretly. You know, it's hard to get jealous when a lot of girls are flirting with her" She laughs bitterly "I had spent my 3 years hanging out with her, eating with her, sleeping with her, everything. We almost, almost look like a couple. But we're just bestfriend" Her voice cracked.

"I know from the beggining Lisa will never fall for me, she just see me as a bestfriend, nothing more than that" She started to tear up. I handed her my hankerchief "Thanks"

"But why? Why she can't see more, like I see her? The way I love her? Am I not good enough?" She cries. I just let her talk. "I did everything to make her fall in love with me, but damn it turns out like this!" She sobs. I didn't say anything, I will just let her.

"I want to move on. I tried to control my feelings, but you know I can't. I'm not supposed to love her like this, because she only sees me..." I went infront of her and hold her shoulder. Now it's time for me to talk.

"Hey listen to me. You're good enough okay? Don't ever think that. If we will ask Lisa now, she will tell you honestly you're enough. But as her bestfriend" she cries harder yeah I will make her cry more, I know later she will feel better

"And it's okay to feel that way, it's normal to fall in love with your bestfriend because you're always with her. But let me tell you this even though she's my sister, imma keep it real with you, is that okay?" she nods

"That person isn't interested, then why you keep on pursuing her secretly? Look, you can pursue her if you're both in the same page. But if not, dude that's a hundred percent no. You'll just going to continue hurting yourself, so stop. Yeah it's normal to cry, it's normal to feel sad, there's nothing wrong with that because a love you feel deeply isn't returned. It's okay. Cry as much as you like, BUT" I paused

"Don't go back there just to repeat everything. Rosie DO NOT" I emphasized the word do not. I'm saying this because I like her? No. I'm saying this because I'm a friend and she need a shoulder right now imma stay even though I'm just hurting myself at the same time.

"I understand if you can't move on easily, because it's really tough. But Rosie, don't go back to the same routine again. You know what I'm saying? Being clingy with each other, hanging out often, something like that. Because you'll fall into the same habit again. Hurting yourself secretly, loving her secretly, coz it won't help you to move on"

"How? How Chu? She's the only person I have here?" Ouch! That's foul!

"Rosie, what about me? I'm here, I got you okay? I got your back, I promise" I sincerely said. She immediately hugged me, I smile bitterly as I hug her back. She's sobbing

"Cry all you want, let it all out Rosie. I'm here" I said rubbing her back

"Chu, don't leave me" She cry harder "Jisoo don't leave me please?" I don't know why but it made me tear up. She's afraid that I might leave her.

"I'm not going anywhere. I'm not going to leave you, and that's a promise Rosé. And Rosé, I will help you to move on if you will let me and if you will help yourself too" She pulled away as she face me, her tears continued to flow. I smiled and wiped her tears

"No doubt....you're Lisa's sister" She said and hugged me again. I don't know what is that supposed to mean but I didn't bother to ask.

"Chu"

"Hmmm?"

"Thank you"

"For what?" I asked looking at her while she's looking at the sky. You're so beautiful Rosé. Just like your heart. You're so perfect in my eyes.

"For always being there, since I came here, you always accompanies me. So thank you, and for being here today. It means a lot to me" She lean closer and everything went so fast. Dang it! She kissed me! She fucking kissed me! I can still feel her lips on my

Cheeks

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