Endlessly (Lisrene)

Ch. 35

Chaeng's POV

I can't believe what I just heard from Lisa last week and it's been a week since we last talked. I don't want to talk to her because this is a huge mistake. She thought long distance relationship won't last, I mean she haven't even tried yet. This is bullshit. I want to talk to Jisoo about this, but I can't. Even though I'm mad at Lisa, promise is a promise.

"Was it a huge fight?" I flinched because of Moonbyul's voice

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You and Lisa. I haven't seen you two talking" She sat beside me "Here" She handed me a cup of coffee

"Thanks. Was it obvious?" I asked then she laughed at me

"Everyone knows, but no one dare to ask" She shrugged. "We don't have any idea what happened between you two there. When you left, you were cool but then after that....boom!" Even Jisoo is being suspicious

"Ohh...It's just a misunderstanding" I answered. She shakes her head

"Uh-uh. Don't you dare lie to me, this is not just a misunderstanding" She pulled her chair infront of me and sat "What did she do?" She said wiggling her brows. I frown

"I know what you're thinking. Please don't be disrespectful" I gritted my teeth. She raise her hands

"I'm not, it's just the only possible thing..." I cut her off

"Shut up and no, okay? Nothing happened" I looked away

"Nothing happened?" I'm sure it's Irene. I turned to face her

"Nothing" I simply said. She scoffs

"Lisa was acting cold since the day you went out, tell me...Nothing happened?" Her tears began seeping down her cheeks. Ugh Lisa you're so fucking stupid. I bit my lip

"I think you should talk to her" I lowered my head

"How am I supposed to talk to her if she's always drunk?" I lift up my head.

"What?" Jeeeeez Lisa!

"You heard me" I nod

"Where is she?" I asked

"Upstairs"

"Can I talk to her?" I asked then she just shrugged and walk away

"I think you should. This is a mess" Moonbyul stood and mess my hair. "You got this" She said then left me. I run to Lisa's room, here she is staring at the ceiling

"The answer is not there" I said as I entered in her room. I walk closer to her and crossed my arms "What are you up to?" I asked. She scoffs

"Now you decided to talk to me?" She sat "Do me a favor, leave me the fuck alone"

"What is wrong with you?!"

"What's wrong? I'm hurt and I can't do anything about it" She gritted her teeth with teary eye "I'm dying Chaeng. You get me?" she burst out crying

"W...what are you talking about?" My voice cracked "Wha...what are you saying?" I asked shaking her body

"N...nothing" She said avoiding my eyes

"What is it?!" I asked shaking her.

"I ha...have....cancer....bone cancer" She cries as I fell on the floor. I can't move, my tears continue to seep down on my cheeks. I can't breath. I want to hug her, but I can't. I couldn't move, my legs are too weak. Why her? I felt her arms around me then she kisses my head.

"Shhh. Don't cry, shhhh. It's okay, it's okay" She whispered but her voice is still shaking "Don't cry"

"It all make sense now...You weren't available every weekends when we were still here. And you just told me you don't want her to wait for you ....because...who knows if you're coming back" She wiped my tears

"I will" She kisses my forehead "Or I will not" She chuckles awkwardly. I hug her tightly while crying "Shhhh. It's okay it's okay. Don't waste your tears, save it when I'm gone" She joked as I pulled away

"You think it's funny? We're talking about death here" She scoffs

"Yeah. It's funny...how my life is fucked up. My parents died infront of me, then I met Jennie...it didn't worked out and then this bone cancer happened" She fake a laugh "I went here for theraphy and for the company, I felt so alone but thank God I met you...atleast I have someone who will look for me" She smile sweetly as if everything's normal.

"Then I asked them if I can stay in sokor to be with my siblings. All I was thinking that time...is to fix thing with them and go back in here to cure. But I met Joohyun...I forgot everything, she completes me. And I know she feel the same way too...You know why I didn't tell her? Because I want her to chase her dreams, cuz I can't chase mine. I don't want to ruin her life because of me, yes it'll break her but she'll be fine. And do you know how fucked up that is? I couldn't even able to tell her about this. I might be selfish but who cares? I just want to keep her heart safe, always" She said shaking her head while her tears continued to fall.

"You don't wanna hurt her? But you know by...."

"Keeping this from will hurt her more? Yeah I know that but as I've said Joohyun won't suffer knowing her girlfriend is dying. It's better this way. This is my fight, Chaeng"

"Please don't carry everything" I said touching her face. She just shrugged

"Do you remember, when you told me you were dancing before but now you can't, I thought it was really because of Jennie and gave you trauma but then Irene came in...you started dancing again because of her but you know it'll cause you pain and still did it. You risk everything on her, and now I know how much you really love her. You can't even tell her you're in pain because you don't want her to feel the same way" She laughs.

"I can't hurt that girl. All I want for her is to be happy"

"You've said enough" I smiles. I rested my head on her chest. "I hate you for keeping this from me" I honestly said

"I know. I'm idiot, you know that" She giggled. "I'm coming with you to go back in Sokor then I'll be back her in few days" I lifted my head to meet her gaze

"I'm coming with you" I said

"What? No! Chaeng, Jisoo needs you"

"No. You need me, understand? If you don't want me to tell them, okay..but atleast let me be with you. I'm coming with you"

"Chaeng..."

"Lisa please, I'm begging you" I plead.

"Fine. But please don't tell..."

"I won't tell them, specially Jisoo. I will go after you to make it looks like my parents called me to go back here"

"Sounds like a plan" She chuckled. "Come here" She said with an open arm, I obey and hugged her "You don't have to do this, you know that right?"

"Yes I do." I buried my fast on her neck.

"Thank you" She whispered then kiss my hair. "I love you Chipmunk" She said softly, my tears starts to fall down again

"I love you Limario" Always.

"I never meant to turn you into this, I'm sorry" I pulled away and held her face

"Shhh. Don't be, I want this okay? And I'm choosing you" I added kissing her forehead "I'll always choose you, my bestfriend" I whispered the last part and hug her tightly.