you can stay | changlix ✔︎

seventeen

~lee felix~

i wasn't allowed to do anything in the hospital. no walking around, no going to the cafeteria, basically no leaving the room. i understood they wanted to monitor me, but i couldn't spread my sickness only changbin could do that, and he's not here. i was allowed to have visitors, but there was no one to visit me except my parents.

i spent my time sending texts to binnie and praying he'd respond because as of right now he had disappeared. there was no way anyone had taken him out of the house without the news sites exploding. if something bad happened to him then i'd know in an instant. i truly think he was just feeling ashamed. although i hate to admit it, he did cause this. he didn't mean it though, so i couldn't be mad.

i knew changbin had it rough living on his own with all his thoughts. he only had himself, and that could be dangerous. he's been through a lot and even though i don't know all the details i know it's really hard for him to be happy. if he...did something to himself, then he could never get the help he needed. no one could just rush changbin to a hospital or give him mouth to mouth. no one could see the future of their side effects.

"felix?" a soft knock sounded on my door and i looked up to see chenle. i did not expect to see him here, but it's a nice surprise.

"chenle? what are you doing here? come in!"

he watched into the room, closing the door behind him. his expression was somewhat unreadable as he sat on the bed with me. oh god, did the officer already speak to him? is that why i'm not hearing from changbin?

"okay i don't really know how to put this, so i'm just going to say it straight forward." chenle could hardly hold eye contact, and his hands were intertwined to stop movement. "is your boyfriend a criminal or something?"

"w-what? changbin? no no no."

"changbin, that's what the officer said. felix are you lying to me?"

"what officer?"

"officer kang. he showed up at my house and said he needed to talk to me about changbin and that i was your witness. but i don't know what i'm supposed to be a witness for. so i told him i couldn't talk at the moment, and he said he'd come back. did he kill someone? oh no, don't tell me-"

"chenle, he is not a criminal." i smiled as chenle took the deepest breath humanly possible. his hand went to his heart and he muttered 'thank god' under his breath. "but i need you to do me a favor, and if anyone finds out your lying we could be in serious trouble."

he nodded slowly, and he face quickly turned to one of business. i started to explain how changbin and i met, for chenle needed to know all the details. i mentioned changbin's mom, and what happened with her, and chenle was taken back. i told him about how i brought changbin cookies, but then he touched a flower and it died, so he was scared to see me. and then about the day i kissed changbin and he freaked out because he thought i was going to die, but i turned out fine except for the whole 'i'm dying from the inside out thing haha.'

i walked him through every single little detail, and i knew chenle was good at remembering details. don't think i forgot the day he blackmailed a group of students in our grade, that was classic.

"okay, so basically he has superpowers but instead of helping you they kill you? and you guys fell in love, and you're like kind of immune, but now it's catching up to you. and your parents hate him but kind of like him? oh and when you went to the waterfall you got really bad, so you told him to leave so he would get turned into a lab experiment?"

"yes, exactly. so the police are trying to figure out why i was so sick at the scene to help out the doctors, but if changbin is placed at the waterfall then i'll probably never see him again. i told officer kang that i was sick before but chose to ignore, which is the truth. but i also mentioned that you were the friend that i went to the waterfall with."

"is that why he didn't come to the snack bar and say hi? i thought he was just rude."

"chenle! is that really what your worried about?"

"i feel like you have a thing for assholes or guys who will never like you back."

"are you going to help me or not?"

"of course felix. but just tell me, is he really that perfect and does he have siblings that maybe aren't the epitome of death?"

"i'm done with you."

~seo changbin~

i was being a bad boyfriend. i knew i was, yet i continued to do everything that made me awful. i kept ignoring the texts, calls, felix even contacted me through emails to make sure i was okay, but all i did was ignore him. he had to get rid of me and i knew he couldn't do it on his own, so i'm doing it for him. i'm not good for anyone and if anything happens to him i'll never forgive myself.

my door bell would ring every so often although i'm not sure who would visit me. no one in the neighborhood really paid any attention to the fact i lived here, and everyone i did know in my life knew i couldn't really just hang out.

lix <3
changbin please answer me

lix <3
i'm not mad at you but
if you're mad at me please
tell me

lix <3
my parents went and dropped
a couple things at your front
door...they're from me

lix <3
i love you bin
delivered

ding ding ding, that's the noise that surrounded my ears. the faster he stopped loving me, the better.