you can stay | changlix ✔︎

eighteen

~seo changbin~

i was wondering if felix had listened to the flash drive i had given him. i hoped he hadn't, it would just make things easier for the both of us. it was so hard being in love with someone who you weren't supposed to be with. i never wanted to let him go, but i couldn't stand continuously hurting him.

i haven't been doing much lately being honest. i shut my phone down, and was just trying to live alone again. my doctors haven't come around in a bit, but my father was still sending me household necessities. so much for him taking me out of his life.

just as i was walking down the stairs to the living room a loud banging echoed through my house. "hey, uh changbin! i know we haven't met yet, but i'm friends with felix...he sent me over!"

what the...do i open the door? no he'll go away eventually. it's not like he could come in and chat anyway. if felix sent him over then he obviously knows about my condition.

"i hate to do this, but if you don't open the door i'll take back my police statement and place you at the waterfall instead of me. and we both know felix would be absolutely heartbroken if you became a lab rat."

police statement? felix covered for me. he lied to the police for me. oh god, he could be in so much trouble if this kid takes back his statement. well forget isolation, i guess i'm talking to this stranger now.

"i'm going to give you three seconds before i leave and go to the police-"

"i'm here." i swung the door open and was standing face to face with a boy that was quite taller than me. he held a decent sized box in his hands, but i remained uncurious.

"felix really does like emo boys, oh god."

"what do you want?"

"ohh sassy much? i'm chenle by the way. i go to school with felix, and i work at the snack bar at the beach you two went to the other day. nice to finally meet you."

"sorry i didn't greet myself earlier, but you know..."

"it's okay, i understand. are you going to let me in now?"

"w-what?"

"don't worry i won't touch you or anything. we can keep our distance."

"but-"

before i could protest anymore, the glass door was opened and i quickly backed into my house. i knew we weren't going to shake hands or really come into contact, but what if he still got sick. then what? i never really had anyone but felix come inside without a full hazmat suit.

chenle welcomed himself in with no cares in the world. he looked around the house a bit, and ultimately ended up in the kitchen. he set the box down on the counter and smiled at me as he sat down on a bar stool.

"felix sent his parents over a few times to bring you things you might need, but you never answered the door. i figured i could get you to come out, so here i am. he's really worried about you."

"y-yeah i guess he is."

"is your phone broken or something? he's been texting and calling you for days. you should at least tell him you're okay."

"you could tell him."

"you're not being a good boyfriend. no wonder why felix is so upset over you. if i were him i'd break up with you, but i guess some people just love heartbreak-"

"do you have any boundaries?"

he began to laugh, and i just looked at him in awe. chenle had many similarities to felix but they were also completely different. i could definitely see them being friends.

"i won't stay long. i can tell you're uncomfortable. but please don't hurt felix, okay? he's taking this really hard, and i haven't know him forever but i can tell he's never felt the way he feels for you for anyone else. you two have something special, so please don't let that go. you'll both regret it."

"i can't stand the thought of hurting him. look what i've done, he's in the hospital. i could've...could've k-killed him."

"i know we just met, but trust me okay? i don't think you'll ever truly hurt him. i don't think you're capable of it, and that sounds crazy i know. but how else do you explain your relationship?"

he began to get up and head towards the front door. as he passed me his hand reached out to pat me on the back, but quickly recoiled with a frown. we faced each other for a bit, and his eyes held so much sympathy. "chenle? do you know if felix ever listened to the music on the flash drive i gave him? i originially wished we could listen together at the waterfall, but i ruined that..."

"he listens to it everyday, and he loves it so much. i'm pretty sure he's already memorized all the lyrics and melodies. he misses you a lot, so please just consider giving him a quick call, okay? no one has ever loved him this much, changbin, so don't doubt yourself. i'm going to head out, but felix gave me your number, so i'll shoot you a text later."

"thanks chenle."

his footsteps faded away and the front door shut once more. i sat upon the kitchen's bar stool just staring at the care package in front of me. i had no plans of opening the box any time soon. i felt like i had to reach out to felix first, then i would deserve all the gifts felix had compiled together.

binnie <3
hey chenle stopped by
i'm glad you're doing okay

lix <3
binnie oml hi are you
okay?? i haven't heard from
you

binnie <3
i'm alright, just distancing
myself from the world

lix <3
i can't wait to see you
binnie baby :(

binnie <3
stay healthy felix

lix <3
you too bin! i love you
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