Triphilia - together forever | one-shots

Away |5|

Scott sat in the studio room for the whole morning. He sat down and stayed to work on his current project, reviewed a few arrangements Ben had sent him, but he found that he wasn't focused enough. So he say down at the piano and just started playing.

Tones turned into chords and soon, he started singing:

So, before you go
Was there something I could've said to make your heart beat better?
If only I'd have known you had open today your friend a storm to weather
So, before you go
Was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting?
It kills me how your mind could make you feel so worthless
So, before you go

Once he had finished the song, he noticed that Mitch was there, standing in the doorway.

Scott smiled slightly, even though they had fought before, he didn't want the fight to continue. "Hey, Mitch... what's up?"

"Scott? I think I fcked up" Mitch said.

"I really don't think so but what did you do?" Scott wanted to know. He got up and sat back down on the sofa, patting the space beside him.

Mitch understood immediately and sat down next to his fiance. "I... sent him a message?"

"Avi?" Scott asked, just to make sure.

"Yes..." Mitch confirmed. "I was just so angry with him and I had to get it all out. And then I just read it again and it was so mean, I feel so stupid."

"Why don't you let me be the judge of it. Show me, please?" Scott asked.

Mitch hesitated for a moment, but then got out his phone and showed it to Scott. "Here..."

"How could you do that to us? Why did you leave us just like that without saying anything?
I tried my very best to understand you, but guess what? I don't.
I'm disappointed. I thought that we could talk about everything and that we could work through everything. But apparently we can't. Apparently there are things you cannot talk about with us. And hurts to know that we are not enough for you.
I hope you are safe and considering to come back home. Because I still miss you."

Scott nodded slowly while he was reading the message. "I don't think you are stupid at all, mitch. you are just... confused and maybe a little scared to lose him. Honestly, if I didn't have my filters in place this morning, I would probably have texted the same, if not something more extreme" Scott explained. "Because even if I am trying to suppress it, this is exactly how I feel."

"You're not angry with me?" Mitch asked, looking at this fiance with big eyes.

Scott scoffed. "No. I am not. I never was angry with you at all. Yes I was annoyed, but never angry."

Mitch took a deep breath. "Ok that's good to hear. Thank you. But what are we going to do with Avi now?"

Scott shrugged his shoulders. "I think we just have to wait and hope that he replies to either of our messages." He put his arm around Mitch's shoulder and pulled him in. "Maybe what you texted is just what Avi needed to hear. We don't know. And if he doesn't reply by tonight, we will definitely start calling people. Deal?"

Mitch snuggled a little closer to his fiance and nodded. "Yes. Deal. Can we just agree to no more fighting? I'll try to get my mood swings under control"

Scott softly kissed the top of Mitch's head. "Even if you don't, I will accept you with all of your mood swings. I'll be more patient."

~

"What happened, sweetheart?"

Avi was on the phone with this mother. He had decided to call her after he had realised just how badly he had messed up by just leaving Mitch and Scott without saying anything. "I messed up, Mama. So bad."

"I don't think that you messed up that bad, Avi. But why don't you just tell me?"

The soft voice of his mother calmed Avi down immediately. "I... left them. I left LA. I just felt that I couldn't stay there, it was too much."

"Where are you right now?" 

Avi sighed. "In Oregon. Not that far from the Californian border" he explained. "I... just drove north and this is where I landed. I thought about going to Seattle tonight, but I'm not sure. I cannot go back either, Mama. I messed up" he explained. 

"Okay..." Shelley seemed to be thinking for a moment, before she continued. "Let's just take a step back here. Why did you leave in the first place, Avi? After all you were preparing everything for your wedding. You were so happy. I want to understand."

"I was happy, Mama, so happy. But then the news came and everyone kept commenting on my decision to be with them. They were so mean, but I could bear it, somehow. Then Gerald, you know the guy I went to school with, wrote some sort of letter in a magazine. And then I just flipped. I tried calling Mitch and Scott but they were busy. When they came home, I didn't mention it, because it was late and I didn't want to bother them again with these kinds of things. And a few days later they were gone for a night and I just decided to leave in the morning" Avi tried to explain. 

"Why did you leave this morning?" 

"I just needed to get out. It just was to much. I was questioning myself, my decision to be with them for the rest of my life. Not because I don't love them, but because I feared that there would be more shit coming for us in the future. I had never been that bad. People are calling me sinner, they are praying for me to get over all this" Avi explained.

"Do they know that all of this is hitting you this hard?" 

Avi sighed deeply. "No... they don't. I mentioned it to them a few times, but they told me that the media doesn't matter. At first it was okay, but then it all got too much. But they were so busy..." 

"So you decided to deal with it on your own, right?"

"Yes" Avi sighed. "What shall I do, Mama?"

"What do you want to do, Avi? Where do you want to go. Is it still Seattle?" 

"No..." Avi sighed. 

When Avi didn't say anything, Shelley prodded further. "Do you want to go home?"

"Yes, but... I can't. Mama, I hurt them. I've been a terrible fiancé. I don't deserve them" Avi said sadly. 

"Did they tell you so?"

"Of course not. They keep telling me that I am welcomed to come home whenever I am ready. We're texting a few times a day. But I feel so guilty." He shook his head. "Mama, I don't know what to do..." 

"Call them. Don't text them, call them. If possible facetime them. Talk it out. They will accept you, I am positive. And then go home. And if you don't want to go home, come here."

Avi took a deep breath. "Okay. I will call them as soon as I am back at my hotel room. And tomorrow I think I will either go home or come to Visalia" he said. "Thank you, Mama, you're the best."

"I only listened and helped you sort out your thoughts. That's all, Avi. You need to do the rest. Keep me updated, please."

Avi smiled, slightly. "I will. Thank you. I'll go now. Bye, Mama. I'll call you later." 

"You're welcome, dear. Goodbye..." 

"Goodbye." Avi ended the call and drew in a shaky breath. He then emptied his drink and left the café. He decided to take the shortest way back to his hotel and when he arrived there, he texted Scott and Mitch:

"Hi. I am sorry for everything. I... can we facetime? I just got home from a hike so I would shower and then call? Please... I want to explain." 

He sent the message and was surprised when he saw that Scott replying instantly: 

"Yes! We're here together, just give us a call once you're ready. And Avi? Don't worry, we love you."

These words made Avi smile. He still was worried about having to explain everything to them, but it wasn't as bad anymore. Mama had been right. They would still accept him. 

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