Here's the thing about depression, It sucks!

𝖳𝗁𝗂𝗋𝗍𝖾𝖾𝗇~ a shoulder to cry on

Meredith's POV

"What's that supposed go mean?" I asked.

"Nothing, just another thing to add to the lists of why my husband thinks you are so perfect!" She shouted a little loudly.

"I'm nowhere near perfect Addison" I said bitterly as I sat down across from her.

"Of corse you are" She said.

"I'm not fucking perfect, I'm depressed!" I shouted. Thank god someone was doing karaoke. She rolled her eyes.

"Just because her cause you to have depression, doesn't mean you should sing songs about him" she boomed.

"I-i" I stuttered.

"Speak up Grey!"  She said.

"I shouldn't have to explain myself to you, especially not my history" I said. I ran off to the bathroom. I didn't realize that I dropped my prescription on the floor.

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⚠️𝖳𝖱𝖨𝖦𝖦𝖤𝖱 𝖶𝖠𝖱𝖭𝖨𝖭𝖦⚠️ 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝖾𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝖺𝗅𝗄𝗌 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗌𝗎𝗂𝖼𝗂𝖽𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝖾𝗅𝖿 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝗆. 𝖳𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝖻𝖾 𝗆𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌. 𝖯𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗌𝖾 𝗌𝗄𝗂𝗉 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗈 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌.
Addison's Pov

"Y-you dropped this" I said holding it out in her face.

"T-thanks" She said weakly. When she realized what it was she placed a hand to her mouth. I pulled the bottle away before she could grab it.

"This is what you took the other day, when I went to the Chief, wasn't it?" I asked bitterly. "Wait until he sees this" I added.

"That's my anti-depressant" she cried out. I looked at the bottle once more than back at her. She was in tears. "They don't work anymore so I have been doubling up, tonight was one of the better days" she said. I handed her the bottle.

"Oh Meredith I'm so sorry" I said. I walked over to her and hugged her. She started crying harder the minute I wrapped my arms around her.

"I don't know why I told you that" she mumbled as she pulled away. She wiped her tears. "You don't care, you shouldn't care" she added.

"I do care" I replied. For some odd reason that was true.

"You care that your husband cause my depression to be irreversible? You care that me falling in love again, which I said I never would, makes me just want to die?" She spoke quickly.

"Is that really how you feel?" I asked. She nodded letting another tear fall.

"Normally one pill works, but even when I have taken 3 a day I still feel like throwing myself out a window" she cried.

"Have you ever....You know?" I asked vaguely. She lifted up her sleeves. She had multiple scars. She pointed to a long one going across her wrist.

"When I was 15, I tried to kill myself three times because I was told by my mother I was worthless compared to her work" she said. "I also tried to kill myself right before I went into medical school" she added.

"How did you do it?" I asked. She raised her eyebrow.

"You seriously want to know?" She asked. I nodded and waited for her response. "I took pills, the last three attempts didn't work and I was confident with that one" she finally spoke.

"I'm sorry" I said sympathetically.

"It's not your fault, you didn't lie about being married, and you didn't break my heart" she said.

"If I hadn't cheated on him, he never would have come here to break your heart" I said. She nodded.

"Thanks, for talking to me"she said softly. She fixed herself and left the bathroom.

Lyrics;

(Never knew I could see something so clearly looking through my third eye
Never knew karma could be so rewarding and bring me to your life
Maybe this is the beginning of something so magical, tonight (oh, oh)
Take me down to the river
Underneath the blood orange sun
Say my name like a scripture
Keep my heart beating like a drum
Legendary lovers, we could be legendary
Legendary lovers, we should be legendary)

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