Here's the thing about depression, It sucks!

𝖥𝗈𝗎𝗋𝗍𝖾𝖾𝗇~ There's a fire starting in my heart

Meredith's Pov

Today, Alex and Burke are retreating a donor heart for Denny Douquette, their patient and Izzie's boyfriend. Cristina was pissed he wasn't taking her snd made a fuss about it all day.

"He choose the pigheaded ass over me to do a harvest surgery? I mean we are sleeping together and he chooses Alex!" She yelled.

"It's not a big deal Cristina" I said.

"Not a big deal?" She asked harshly.

"Why are you snapping at me, take it out on someone else?" I snapped back.

"Don't be a hypocrite! When Derek left you—" she started.

"I left Derek! And I haven't been an ass to anyone so do t even go there" I yelled before running out of the room.

*****

"Meredith?" Addison called. I could barley hear her. "Meredith!" She called again. She snapped me back to reality.

"Wh-sorry Dr.M-Montgomery" I said. She looked at me weirdly. "I-I wasn't p-paying attention" I added.

"What's gotten into you?" She asked.

"N-Nothing, I'm fine" I said softly in return.

"1-10? How are you feeling" she asked.

"-10" I replied. She dropped her shoulders.

"I'll take you to get drinks tonight, and then I'll ask you again" she said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because I feel guilty, it's my fault that he broke you" she claimed. I shrugged.

"You can believe that all you want, but I don't blame you" I said reassuringly. She nodded and we walked off to surgery.

*****
Addison's Pov
"Yay, the karaoke girl is back!" A man shouted.

"Sing for us again!!" Another one shouted. She laughed and agreed, running up to choose her song. The beat for rolling in the deep started playing.

'There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go 'head and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and its bringing me out the dark'

She looked over and smiled at everyone she saw waving at her.

'The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love they leave me breathless, I can't help feeling
We could have had it all (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)' she sang happily. She stopped singing and started waving me onto the stage. She was happier when she sang. I shook my head at her and stayed in the bar area.

'Baby I have no story to be told
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there 'cause mine sure won't be shared' she continued singing until she reached the last few verses of the song.

'We could've had it all (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
But you played it, you played it, you played it, you played it
To the beat' everyone cheered for her while she returned to the bar. Her phone started buzzing violently.

"What's wrong Grey?" I asked.

"Burke's been shot" she said. We both got up and flew over to the hospital quicker than ever before.

Lyrics:

(Can you hear me when I talk to you
Do the words I say ever make it through
Can you hear me when I talk to you
Cause I'd give anything if I just knew

Every night I have the same dream
The one where you get to hug me
We laugh an' talk until the morning
An' then you vanish
It always leaves me feeling helpless
When I wake up an' you're not there)

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