Unintentionally Loving You || Lee Taeyong

05

With a candle standing in the middle on a coffee table, I sat at the edge of the couch. While Taeyong sat on the other edge. I must remember the 1 meter distance rule.

I looked at him from the corner of my eyes, he was crossing his arm and he looked really tired. I was sure that I've troubled him. Staring at him made the earlier incident popped up in my mind.

"Taeyong, I'm scared!"

A hand landed slightly on my shoulder. "I heard you." Just as I heard this familiar deep voice, I turned to the owner and immediately hugged him tight. He was holding a candle in his hand.

"Thank you." My hands wrapped around his body. I was just felt so relieved that he actually came to me that I hug him without realizing my own action.

He didn't replied to my hug, but I felt safe having him at my lowest point. "I'm sorry." I hesitantly said, avoiding his eyes. "I'm sorry that I hugged you earlier."

He hmm without giving me a clear forgiveness. "Close your eyes and sleep." He leaned his back on the couch too. Tonight hitted differently, because we were both sleeping on the couch with a small distance.

I feel safe.

×××

The sound of alarm vibrations woke me up. I rubbed my eyes and looking up at the ceiling. The fan was moving, electricity has been fixed I guess. I turned to my right side, Taeyong was still sleeping on his spot.

I slowly getting up and took a blanket from my room. After covered it up on Taeyong, I took a morning shower. I tried my best not to make noise anymore, I just didn't want to bother Taeyong's sleeping time. As I've did it twice yesterday.

After changing into a new shirt, I went to the kitchen and took out some ingredients to cook. I have no skills in cooking, unlike Eunhee. But a simple fried rice won't be that hard though?

"Seafood fried rice is done." I served the plates of fried rice on the dining table. Of course there were two, I should use this opportunity to apologize and thank Taeyong.

I placed my plate on the right edge of my side. And Taeyong's plate on the left edge in front of me. We've never ate together at home so I was sure that he'll remind me of keeping distance even when we're eating.

"You're awake?" I questioned when I saw him sitting straight and pinching his forehead. He took a glance at the blanket over his body and then turned to me with that odd look.

"In case you were cold." I felt strange by my answer but nevermind. I just needed to get him eating with me.

He stood up and walked passed by me. "Taeyong, let's have a breakfast." I threw an awkward smile to him. But he didn't look interested.

"I don't eat at home." His simple answer made me freeze for awhile. What's wrong about eating at home? Ah, I got it! It must be because he has no one to cook for him.

"Come on, it's just a meal." I tried to console him. Instead of approaching me at dining table, he turned his way to the toilet.

I sat in disappointment. Even if you're that rich doesn't mean that you can't have homemade food, right? I stirred my own fried rice, mixing everything that doesn't make any change in the look. Fried rice is a mixed food after all, no used of keep mixing them.

I heard footsteps getting near to me. And this familiar scent, Taeyong's. He took the seat at a place I put his fried rice. A bright smile formed on my lips without me noticing that I was actually smile to him.

He ignored my silly look and looked at the plate in front of him. I was anticipating towards his reaction after having a taste, but he wasn't even touch the spoon. But freezing like a statue.

"Why aren't you eating?" I scanned his unreadable face. Seems like there were thousand meaning hiding behind that look.

"I'm..allergic to shrimp." His replied suddenly made me feel guilty. I didn't know that, I know nothing about this guy's life. I just want to thank him, but why did I feel like I made it worse?

"But you have a lot of them in your fridge?" It was strange of how can someone has a lot of allergic food in their fridge. I was sure that allergic food mostly be seen as a poison.

"They're Sooah's favourite food." He lower down his head, avoiding my wondering eyes. Even without having him to explain everything in detail, I acknowledged of how much he valued Sooah more than just a friend. Maybe before I live here, Sooah often come to eat with him.

His action has made everything clear and obvious about the fact that he has feeling for Sooah, how can the girl didn't know? How good it feels to have someone who only focus their eyes on us and willing to do everything to make us happy. He was like a knight.

His phone rang in the middle of this awkward atmosphere. As he was answering his phone, I changed my gaze to somewhere else. I couldn't help, but peeked a look on him sometimes. "Oh, Sooah yah?"

That name made me looking straight at him. "Okay, I'll be there." He was rushing like there was something urgent that needed to be solve right away.

"Are you leaving?" Looks like I was all alone again.

"Yes." He simply replied to my question and walked away from kitchen. "Ah and, you don't have to do unnecessary things like these to thank me or anything. You're staying here for only 3 months, and it's not like we're that close for you to do a lot, right? Just, stop wasting your time already." After his inconsiderate and harsh utterance ended, he entered his room to get change.

"What is this?" I felt a tear drop on my right hand. "W-why am I crying?" Maybe it was painful to hear someone said things like this to me. I thought he could be my first friend at college. I thought living together would make things easier to work out between two friends. I thought I could slowly break the solid ice in him.

They were all just an imagination.

It hasn't been a week since I moved in here, but he kept mentioning things to eventually chase me out. Maybe living with me makes him feels uncomfortable, or maybe I'm more like a burden to him.

He was right, we weren't that close. Not even considerate as friends. Just two strangers happened to share a house. Everything will end after three months.

He had said a lot of harsh words to me that I've almost get used to them. But why did it hit differently this time? It hurts a lot. As I fell deeper into my own thoughts, the door bell rang.

Sooah? Is she here to see Taeyong?

I wiped off my tears and walked closer to the door. I was holding the doorknob tightly until I heard Taeyong exited his room. "How long are you gonna stand there?" Taeyong's sudden voice startled me. The bell rang once again, making my heartbeat skipped faster. Was I not ready to face her yet?

After letting out of a heavy breath, I finally opened the door. It wasn't Sooah.

"L-Lucas?"