Unintentionally Loving You || Lee Taeyong

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"Thank you for sending me home." I sobbed. I opened the door of his car, taking my sling bag with me. "I will return your coat after I wash it." I ended up listening to Lucas, I can't always wait for the impossible thing to happen.

Maybe the word miracle has never existed after all. And again, Lucas's coat was wrapping me. He let me sitting in his car even he knew that I was soaking wet, why didn't I just like this guy? 

"Are you sure you're gonna be okay?" I can't shed my tears anymore, but it was tiring to pretend to be okay when you know you're really not.

"Yeah, don't worry." I finally left him. His car drove away as soon as I entered the apartment building.

I took a deep breath before fitting in the house key. Just as I pushed the door open, I saw Taeyong stood up from the couch. He walked closer to me, carefully.

I knew I was looking miserable now, with my wet clothes, ruined make up and messy hair. I couldn't hide them all. "Hyeyoon ah." He called me but I didn't looked back in his eyes. I don't want to look weak, especially in front of him.

"Why did you just get home now? Do you know how worried I was?" I right away turned to him. Worried, you said?

You didn't even try to call me. When you found out that I wasn't at home, you didn't try to look for me at the place we should be meeting up at. Maybe it would've been a little different if you try to reach me.

Is waiting at home means worry to you?

You're not worried at all, Taeyong.

"I'm tired. Can I take a rest now?" I have no strength to argue with him. Because I know that no matter how much I want to win, my mind will let him win instead.

"Hyeyoon, I'm sorry about-" His hand was holding my arm, maybe he thinks that I couldn't walk properly that he wanted to guide me to my room. I looked like a sick person, right?

"1 meter distance, no skinship." His face crinkled as he looked at me, trying o figure out the meaning of my unclear statement. But I've made it clear enough, I was sure about that. "You haven't forgotten about the rules you created, right?"

I detached my arm from his grip and weakly walking to my room. Right after I closed the door, I leaned my back against the door. Tears dripping on the floor.

The rules have slowly been erased, but I felt like I wrote them back permanently. 

Without bothering to take a shower or changing my clothes first, I threw myself on my bed. I coughed a couple of times. Maybe I caught a cold, but how am I possible to go out and look for the medicine in the fridge after saying those things to Taeyong?

Not thinking much about those things, I fell deeper in my dream.

***

The lights has been turned off and the curtain was pulling opened wide, letting the sun lighted up my room. My body was tucked in the blanket, I remembered sleeping without any blanket yesterday.

My eyes looked up, I felt a wet cloth with ices on my forehead. And, Taeyong was sitting on the floor at my right side. His head was resting on his left arm, he fell asleep. I tried to move my right hand but I couldn't.

It was..locked with Taeyong's right hand. We were holding hands. Is there something that I should remember but I didn't?

On the desk, I saw a glass of water and a pack of medicine. My left hand slowly stroked Taeyong's hair, did he take care of me yesterday? Why?

He should've been at school right now, should I wake him up? A model student can't be late like me who never cares about attendance.

I was observing this handsome face of him, in detail. But I stopped when he suddenly opened his eyes. He lifted up his head and looked at me but I looked away. I pulled out my hand from his grip. 

"You're late." I played with my fingers, pretending to be busy.

"Yeah, I know." He rubbed his sleepy eyes and stood up. He knows? Then why isn't he rushing out? "I've prepared a medicine for you, don't forget to eat it. You're sick so just stay at home."

"No, I'm going with Yeojin later."

"Then..take care." I didn't know what do I want exactly want. Even if he apologizes, that won't be enough. I couldn't cool myself down anymore. He kept leading me on, I hate that.

***

"You look pale, my dear. Are you sick or what?" Yeojin and I put our bags on the chair and sat. She stood her chin up and looked at me with pitiful eyes.

"And you look sadder than usual, did something happened?" I did the same as she did and faced her.

"I have something to tell you, but you tell me your problem first."

"No, no. You first." As the conversation continued this way, I ended up telling her my problem first. I explained about everything that happened on me yesterday. From how we planned to meet up and how I was left alone.

"He stood you up?!" Yeah, obviously he did. I can't blame anyone for things happened this way but I just wanted to say that I hate it when he had options, and he chose Sooah.

"Don't be sad, Hyeyoon. There are plenty of guys in this world that worth more to have than that Taeyong." But it's hard to remove the heart that has been attached to other's heart. 

Instead of looking for something else to be better, why can't he just be the best?

"What about you?" I changed the topic, I just don't wanna get sadder by keep thinking about the same thing over and over.

"I, broke up with Mark." I felt like having my eyes popping out hearing Yeojin said that. They looked just fine everyday, being lovey dovey here and there. They made me think that separation is almost impossible for them.

Were they lacked of that knowing process? Maybe it's impossible to be in relationship after meeting just for a day. I didn't expect love to be this cruel to be honest. 

"What exactly happened?" It felt a bit rude by asking her straightforward but I was that curious, ya know. Because as far as I know Mark, he looks like a good person who would never hurts any girl.

"We can't solve the misunderstanding between us and he said that he needs time to fully understand what kind of person I am. Maybe I didn't fit his ideal type so I asked for a separation." To me, Yeojin is someone who always has a smile on her face. Seeing her this broke down, I knew how much she actually loves Mark.

Maybe she thinks of herself as a burden to Mark that the only solution left is leaving him. They've just dated for 2 weeks, who could've expected that it will end up this way?

I didn't dare to question in detail about what misunderstanding were they having, she might feel sadder to recall that painful moment.

"Forget about Taeyong, forget about Mark. Girls have a strong heart, Hyeyoon. Let's not cry for them anymore." She was indeed stronger than I thought. If only I can have that spirit too. She wiped off her tears and gave me a smirk.

"I have an idea."

Stupid ideas again?