"Omg Lina why are you on the floor." Kilani says in a panic. I sit up still waking up confused. then I fully wake up and remember everything and every single detail. "I uh I tried to suffocate myself." I say putting my head down. "oh my gosh are you ok." She says hugging me now crying. I just sit there and hug her needing the comfort of a friend. "Nash found me." I says. "what? What did he do?!." She says. "he um turned off the shower asked me why I did it and yeah." I say looking down. kilani sighs and gets up. "Come on we have a event today then tomorrow is our last day here and we go back home for a week." Kilani says. I get up and walk out looking horrible. I see Nash sitting on the bed with Taylor. nash gives me a small smile. I smile back with my fake smile and go to my bag and take out my outfit for the event. "Hey Malina later tonight can we talk on the balcony." Nash says. "I'm s-sure."I stutter scared of what might happen later. i go into the bathroom with Kilani following me to watch me and make sure I don't hurt myself. I get undressed and stare at myself in the mirror and I just see how fat I am and how ugly I am and how I'm not fit to be my brothers twin. a tear slips down my cheek forgetting Kilani is in there with me. I hop in the shower and wash my hair body and face. I get out and put leggings a tank cardigan and shoes with fringe on it I do my makeup and hair and walk out. I walk out and sit on the bed while I wait for Kilani to get dressed. I walk out to the balcony I push the currents together and close the door so the boys won't see me. I grab the garbage out on the balcony and make myself throw up in it feeling fat from eating all that food from yesterday. I go back in grab a water and pour it in the garbage and dump it over the balcony ledge. I walk back in and see Kilani dressed and looking at me upset. We walk out the room and down to the venue area. I sit on the couch with kilani. "hey sis." I hear Matt yell. I get up run over to him and hug him. "what's the matter?" He asks. "nothing I just love a lot big bro by 1 minute." I say. "I love you too." he says. "Hey Lina and lani." Shawn says. "Shawn." lani says getting up and hugging him. I giggle a little because I know lani has a crush on shawn. "HEY WHERE IS FATASS." I hear a girl shout. then I realized they started letting the girls in. I sigh and Kilani comes up to me and holds my hand. "who's ready for the magcon family to come out." I hear Bart announce. "come on out Cameron." "Nash." "shawn." "matt." "carter." "aaron." "taylor." "jacob." "jack j." "jack g." "Mahogany." "Kilani and Malina.." once our name is called Kilani and I walk out and I put on my best fake smile. Kilani and I both sing but I also dance. "who's ready for q&a." matt says. the girls go wild. "girl with the Minnie ears. "Yeah so when is Malina going to lose weight." she says. I look down and just stay quiet. "That was a bitch move to do that to my sister." Matt says fustrated into the microphone. "Matt it's ok." I say trying not to cry. Matt sighs and calms down and leaves the situation alone. we continue with
Q&A but then there was a comment that hit me. "Malina I bet you get your ass beat everyday because no one loves you. I walk off stage and go towards the couch and put my hands on my face. I hear the click of Kilani wedges coming over to me. "Lina I'm sorry." she says. she hugs me and I cry a little. "it's not your fault." I sniff. "I just hate seeing them break you down." she says. then I hear Matt and Shawn on the microphones telling those two girls off and they wee removed from the venue. I go back on stage with Kilani and watch the boys preform and Kilani preform a cover of showers by becky g. then it was my turn I got up and grab the microphone. "I will be singing a cover of human by Cher lloyd." I say softly into the microphone. some girls cheer and then the nusic comes on and I start singing. once I finish singing the track replays and I dance the dance I made up for it and the girls clap. "thank you for attending the even today and our meet and greet and hope to see you soon." Cameron says. we walk off stage and then go to our rooms. "it's only 2:00 let's go shopping." Kilani sYs giving me a small smile. "ok." I say then I feel Matt come up behind me and hug me. "I love you a lot little sis by 1 min." he says. "thanks." I say. we walk out and head to the mall to walk around a look at stuff.
I got dresses from Forver 21 shorts shirts skirts shoes and stuff from hot topic and love culture. We also ate lunch but I threw it up in the bathroom. It was 6:00 and Kilani and I head back to the hotel. We go to the room and put our stuff down and head to the jacks room. we chill and ate with everyone else me only talking to Shawn Matt Jacob Aaron and kilani. It's about 12:00 now and we head back to our room and I change in the bathroom have my occasional routine of hateful thoughts hating my flaws and throwing up adding my one slice to my arm and hiding my heart box and I changed and walked out and went to the balcony. I wait for Nash to come out and I stare at my one fresh cut. a tear runs down my face. "Malina." Nash says. I wipe my face. "what do you want to talk about Nash." I says. "us and you but you more importantly." I look and see Taylor and Kilani sleep. "o-ok t-talk." I stutter.
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