The girl with bulimia (Nash grier fanfic) *May Trigger*

Chapter 14

Malina pov
"Lina wake up." I hear Kilani say. I sit up and wipe my eyes. I get out of bed and go over to my bag and get out a pair of shorts a shirt knee socks and some vans for now. I walk into the bathroom and Change looking at myself in the mirror after taking off and article. the words fat ugly stupid kill yourself ran through my head I finished getting dressed and curled my hair and did my makeup and came out.
I grab my phone and everyone gets up dresses we go down to go eat breakfast. "the first event is tomorrow." Nash says. "I know." I say. "excited?" Taylor asks. "yeah we are." Kilani says kind of irritated. "Where are we eating." I ask shakily. "Denny's."kilani says. I let out a huge breath of sacredness. "it will be ok Lina."she whispers. "is she ok?" Nash ask. "I'm not telling you because you are an ass." Kilani says. the elevator gets to the lobby floor and we get out and head outside to the car. there are a lot of fans. some of them shouted hateful things. when I passed by this one girl she yanked my hair and I fell back some fans laughed some got mad at the girl. Kilani was about to help me up but Nash beat her to it I look at him with confusion and scariness because he would usually laugh at me. Kilani roles her eyes at him. "that wasn't nice at all for you to do that." Nash says. "what that ugly skank who isn't even good enough to be Matt sister haha." the girl says. I hear Nash trying not to laugh. I feel tears brim the rim of my eyes. "say sorry or we will make sure you won't get into the venue." he says. "sorry." the girl says with disgust. i walk away to Kilani and she hugs me. We get in the car and I feel someone put their hand on my knee. I look over and see it's Nash. He gives me a small smile. I look at him and turn back toward Kilani.
She looks at me and then at Nash's hand on my knee and the looks up at Nash. he removes his hand from my knee. "what the hell was that!" She whisper yelled. "I do t know he's been doing strange things lately." I whisper back. kilani shakes her head yes. we chat to each other for a while until we get to the restaurant. I get out last trying to waste time of eating before we have to go and pre sign somethings. "come on Kilani and Malina." Taylor says. Kilani grabs my hand and walks in with me behind everyone else. we sit at the table and all the boys already know what they want. I look through the menu cautious not knowing what to eat. "hi what you like to eat here at Denny's today." a brunette haired waitress says. all the boys order and then it came down to me a Kilani. "me and her would like to
Have hash browns egg and bacon please with orange juice." Kilani says. I look at her like are you serious and Kilani shrugs. the waitress walks back and puts the order in. i pull out my phone and text Kilani.
M: are your kidding me that's a lot
K: no it's not you have to eat or they will know
M: Shawn knows
K: when?!!!??
M: since yesterday
K: ok tell me about it later but you are eating even if I have to feed you.
I sigh and lock my phone and put my hands on my face and just calm down for a minute and remove then.
"Li li are you ok?" Matt asks. "yeah I'm fine don't worry about me." I say.
soon the food comes we eat and head back to the hotel and sign stuff. we play around and Matt thought it would be funny to prank the others which ended up as us getting yelled at. We ran around the hotel went shopping and filmed videos. soon Kilani and I headed upstairs to get ready for bed before the boys came I grab sweatpants and a crop top plus a cardigan to cover myself up. I took off my shirt and then I heard the door open and I turn and see the Nash and Taylor staring at me I hurry up and put my shirt on so they won't see my figure. "OUT!" Kilani yells. "learn how to knock." she says. "but this is our room too" Nash says. Kilani roles her eyes and pushed them out. All of a sudden my breathing starts to quicken and I start to shakes. "Malina calm down, breathe in and out." Kilani says . "t-they saw me. I-I can't let anyone know. t-they'll tell everyone." I say my breathing getting heavier. "Malina breath in and out slowly." she says. I start to listening to her and my breathing starts to slow down and become regular. Kilani hugs me. "they didn't see I promise it's ok Malina." she says hugging me. I try not to cry and get up and put the rest of my pj on. Kilani walks to the door and opens it for the boys. she gives them the stink eye and lays in bed. I lay next to her and close my eyes.
*malina dreams*
"Hey everyone we were on tour with fat ass over here and guess watch she an anorexic bitch and suicidal." Nash yells to everyone and they all start laughing and calling me names. I run to the stairs that lead to the roof of the school. I stand on the ledge of the building and next thing I'm falling from the sky in a flying motion. then everything goes black.
*end of dream*
I shoot up out of bed and realize I'm sweating and walk to the bathroom.
I lean against the counter and look up at the mirror. I start to cry in frustration of all the pain I go through I close the door and turn on the shower and sit on the floor and let the steam accumulate. To suck me in as I cry. I sit there for a few minutes and cry then I look up and see someone turning off the shower. "stop turn it back on." I say getting up trying to turn it back on. "no Malina why are you doing this, why are you trying to suffocate your self?" Nash says. "I hate my life and myself you make it a living hell I can't escape." I say falling to the floor crying and pulling my knees to my chest. I can't believe I just told this to my bully basically my murder. He sighs and sits next to me and I scoot away from him in fear. He sighs gets up and walks back to the room. soon I find myself falling asleep on the bathroom floor. Letting all this middle of the night drama take over me.