Our Little Secret

30-I Would

*jens pov*

I watched Leah get up and walk away from the table. "Why?..." Jade almost whispers. "I-I can't really say...." I look down. "All I can really say is that, I'm sorry for getting you involved with this." I shrug and sigh. She just shakes her head and continues eating. I stand up and go back to my office.

I don't know why, but I'm lowkey kind of hurt. I mean I do know why....when Leah said all that...my heart just sank. I really thought we had something. I don't want us to be a mistake, because we both know it wasn't. We both wanted it, I guess the only difference now is that I'm the only one who wants it, and that just makes me feel weak. Like I'm the only one trying, or with feelings.

I don't want to have to stop seeing her. She's the one. I know it because at the end of the day, I don't want to come home to Alex, I want to come home to Leah. Wow, I never thought about that...but overall, she's the one who makes me happy. She's never made me feel less about myself, she's never physically hurt me. I would say she's never mentally hurt me, but, I mean she is right now so...

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I suffer through the rest of the day, and finally it's time to leave. I head out of the office and go home.

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"What should we get for dinner?" I ask Alex. "I don't care, whatever you want." He shrugs and keeps his attention on his laptop. "Cuz that helps.." I roll my eyes. Then my phone goes off, so I walk over to the island and read the notification.

Leah💕
iMessage 4:27 pm

I sigh and unlock my phone to read the message.

Leah: "Come over"

Jen: "Can't, I'm busy"

Leah: "Please?"

Jen: "Leah, I'm cooking dinner for my family, can it not wait??"

Leah: "Ok, fine."

I don't know why she wants me to come over. I'm pretty sure she knows I'm mad at her, and after everything that happened I don't think we can just "hang out" normally until we've talked about it. But the thing is, I don't want to talk about it, that's what I'm dreading. Because I know it's not going to end well, or it'll end fine but we're still gonna hold a grudge with eachother.

I end up making chicken, and we eat dinner. We all finish up, I put the twins to bed, then me and Alex get into bed.

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Alex is asleep, but I'm just laying there. I can't sleep, I keep thinking about Leah. I know I said I don't want to talk about it, but I still want to see her, and talk to her in general. But we can't act normal until things are figured out.

This sucks, I feel so fucking vulnerable, I hate this. I pick up my phone and text Leah.

Jen: "I'm coming over."

I always give in, so she probably saw this coming. I get out of bed slowly, trying not to wake up Alex, then I grab a sweatshirt and go outside. I decide to just walk since I don't want the sound of the car to be loud. I walk down the side walk and turn right, around the corner. Then I get there about 3 houses down.

I walk onto her front porch and I think if I should ring the doorbell or not. Right before I knock on the door, someone opens the door and I see Leah in the doorway. She's kind of hard to read right now, but she smiles at me unintentionally. Fuck, that smile.