Our Little Secret

14-Perfect

*jens pov*

I just don't get Leah, she says I make her literally think about being a lesbian. Then she said that she likes it, but when I go to make a move she freaks out.

I mean...we are both married....with kids. And us doing this could ruin both our lives. Fuck, I'm the stupid one. I'm married and I made a move on another married woman..

Oh my god, I feel really bad. My head is so fucked up right now. I mean my marriage is already technically fucked, but I'm still married! And imagine if I ruined Angelo and Leah's marriage....I wouldn't even be able to live with myself. And Sofia....ugh.....poor babygirl.

I just can't stop thinking about Leah. I need rest, or a drink.

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It's the next day and I'm getting ready for work. Alex got back with the kids last night around 10, so my coconuts cheered me up.

I put on sort of a pantsuit for today. I'm wearing tight business pants that are navy blue, a white silk shirt tucked in, and then the coat sort of thingy that goes with the pants. This is my first time not really wearing a dress or skirt, but this outfit shows of my curves very well. And the shirt has a lot, and I mean a lot, of cleavage. I mean my boobs don't look like they're gonna fall out, they just look good. Great actually. Anywho. Then I add a Chanel belt and some black heels to complete the look.

I curl my hair, and it's really cute because they're big curls that are nice and bouncy. It kind of reminds me of how Leah wears her hair...Ugh.

I walk out of the bathroom, grab my stuff, and head to work.

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I walk in the building and head to my office. Then I stop in front of Leah's office. I didn't even mean to, I just did it by habit.

I sigh, then I keep walking til I get to my office. I put all my shit down since it's a lot, I'm surprised I even got all those papers done for Mr.Smith last night. Fuck. I totally forgot about him and what he did yesterday. Ugh, this is too much for me right now. Okay, maybe he'll be normal, it was probably just a one time offer for sex, and I declined. So maybe he'll leave me alone about it, I hope...

But I have to go and see him since I need to turn in these papers. I gather the papers he gave me and head to his office. I get there and knock on the door. "Yeah, come in." He says. I walk in slowly and shut the door. Then he looks up from his computer. "Jennifer!" He says happily and eyes me down.

"Good morning Mr.Smith, I have the papers for you." I smile and walk over to his desk. "Oh! Thanks so much." He stands up quickly and takes the papers out of my hands then puts them on his desk. "You look nice today." He smiles while still standing in front of me.

"Oh-I- Thankyou." I smile and he nods. "I guess I'll get back to my office.." I say and look down. "Alright, oh and see me before you leave today." He says. "But-I- Mr.Smith I can't-" "I just need to give you some more work, you're on a roll with these graphs, very impressive." He smiles. "I-okay..." I give in. "Ok, see you later." He says. Then I turn around but he stops me. "Oh! Can you actually do me a favor?" He says and I turn around. "Of course." I smile and walk back over.

"Bring these to Leah Remini." He says and hands me some papers. I swear I thought he was gonna ask for a blowjob or something.

"Her office is just dow-" "I know where it is." I interrupt with kind of an attitude, then I giggle so I don't sound too mean. "Oh, great, thankyou." He smiles. Then I actually leave. Great. Now I'm gonna have to see the one person I was avoiding today, well Mr.Smith too, but whatever.

I start walking to her office, and I start to get nervous......I eventually get there and I wait for like a minute before knocking on the door.

Eventually I knock. "Come in." She says, ugh her voice. I open the door and peak my head in. She looks up and rolls her eyes and looks away when she realizes it's me. Then I fully walk in and shut the door. She leans back in her chair and just looks at me. "Uh, Mr.Smith wanted me to bring these to you." I say and slowly walk over to her desk. "Ok." She says and starts doing her work again. "Where do you want me to put them?..." I ask but she ignores me.

So I just put them on her desk. "You can't ignore me forever." I tilt my head. "Actually I can." She says without looking at me. "Ok well I know that you don't want to.." I say and sit in a chair in front of her desk. Then she looks at me. "Ugh, can you just, not?" She says annoyed. "What? talk to you?" I ask. "Yeah, kinda. I mean if you're gonna try and get in my pants everytime we have a normal conversation." She rolls her eyes. "It's not like that Leah.." I say and tilt my head.

"Then What is is like? Because I would really like to know?!" She says getting louder. "I don't know! I honestly just...don't know." I get louder too and shrug. "Well...I don't know if we should hang out until you do have it figured out, and probably not even after that..." She says and looks away. "Really?" I raise my brows. "Yes.." She says. "Wow, um, ok then." That really hurt, I'm trying to reason with her, and maybe talk it out, but she just wants to save herself.

I stand up and almost walk out but I stop myself, I'm not walking out again. "You know....you're the one who said you liked it." I turn around facing her. "Well I wasn't gonna lie, but if you'd let me finish that sentence, I was gonna say "but we can't" before you kissed me, again." She says.

"Ok?! That doesn't change shit! You still kissed me back! That was a two person job, and you contributed Leah! Don't put this all on me, you can't blame me!" I say getting frustrated. "Actually I can! You tried to convince me that everything you were doing was "ok". I thought you were just touchy. But you finally got your chance with someone new when I moved into the neighborhood." She tilts her head and raises her brows.

"You think I was just looking for some fuck buddy?! Leah! Hello! I feel something with you, that I've never felt with a girl. It's not like I fucking planned this whole scheme out in my head! I don't get why you can't see that I'm just as confused as you! I'm sorry that my marriage isn't perfect and worth saving. And I'm sorry I don't have a huge happy family, because my real dad is somewhere drugged out, while my mom is just fuckin around with this dude she's been with since I was in high school. I'm sorry that you have this amazing little life, that isn't big enough for a fuck-up like me, you know maybe we shouldn't talk anymore, I wouldn't wanna be a bad influence, since you're not a grown ass adult or anything!" I shrug and look at her. I feel my eyes start to get teary.

"I don't know what to say Jennifer.." She sighs and looks away. A tear drops down my cheek. She stands up and comes over to me and pulls me in for a hug. "I'm sorry." She says. "I just don't want you to cut me off.." I sniff and hug her back. "I won't....I won't leave you Jennifer." She pulls back and shakes her head. "We can get together sometime this week, and the kids can hang out. We'll talk, okay?" She says and wipe my tears with her thumb. I nod and sniff again. "Don't cry." She holds my hands. Then she grabs a tissue off her desk. "I don't want anyone to see you with your makeup like this." She giggles and I laugh too.

She fixes my makeup with the tissue the throws it away. "Are you ok?" She asks. "Mhm." I nod. "Okay...well we should both get back to work yeah?" She says. "I sigh and nod. "I'll see you soon." She assures me. "Okay, thankyou.." I say. She nods and I head out the door.