JUST MAYBE (UNDER REVISION)

CHAPTER 10

KUYA Eeron keep on calling me. But I just can't answer him. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want them to see me in this kind of situation. I look like a mess. My eyes are swollen because of so much crying. My tears can't stop from flowing. My eyes hurt but it don't stop. It's still hurt. Lahat ng mga sinabi nya kanina it keeps on playing on my mind.

I don't want to like you.

I love her.

Paulit ulit kong naririnig sa utak ko ang mga yan. Tumatagos sa puso ang sakit.

Does he really love her?

Lalo akong naiyak sa isiping mahal nga nya talaga si Freya.

Bakit ang daya?

Ako naman yung matagal nyang nakasama e. Ni minsan ba hindi nya ako nagustuhan? That's so unfair.

I was with him half of his life and he will just fall in love with another woman.

That's hurt.

"Eerina! Come on, Princess open up. Talk to us." that was Shin's voice.

I want to talk to him but I don't want him to see me like this again. Palagi na lang syang nandyan kapag ganito ako.

"Just leave please. I want to be alone." mahina kong sabi.

Patuloy pa ring pumapatak ang mga luha ko.

"Alright. I'll leave you but please eat. I'll leave the food here."

Narinig kong parang may ibinaba sya sa tapat ng pintuan ko and I heard footstep.

After a minute I stand up. Unti unti kong binuksan ang pinto at kinuha ang pagkain. Inilapag ko lang sa mini table ko sa loob ng kwarto ko. Wala akong ganang kumain. I look at my phone when I heard it beep. Kinuha ko iyon at tiningnan kung sino ang nagmessage.

From: Kuya

Baby, I know you won't answer my calls but please just a message. Tell me what's happening. I'm sick worried.

I smiled. He's really the best Kuya. I replied at him.

To: Kuya

I'll be fine Kuya. I will be.

I hit the send button. Wala pang ilang segundo nagreply sya agad.

From: Kuya

Want me to go home? I'll go there right away.

I miss him. I miss my Kuya. I want to hug him and tell him everything that I'm not really fine. That it's hurt. My heart is in so much pain that it feels like it's going to explode.

Alam kong sya lang yung makakapagkalma sakin but I don't want to disturb him. I know he's been busy dealing with our family businesses. Ayokong dumagdag pa sa mga alalahanin nya dahil alam kong isang sabi ko lang na hindi ako okay uuwi sya at iiwan ang trabaho nya and I don't want it to happen.

My phone beep again.

From: Kuya

I'll go home tomorrow. You're not fine.

Dali dali akong nagreply sa kanya.

To: Kuya

No need po Kuya. I'm fine. Really. I know you're busy.

From: Kuya

But you're not okay. You're my first priority lil sis.

To: Kuya