Tragedy of Love (Completed)

Chapter 31

ENOCH'S P.O.V.

Ilang taon akong nagtiis. Ilang taon akong naghintay. Ilang taon kong pinigilan ang sarili ko. Ilang taon kong niloko ang sarili kong wala siyang lugar sa puso ko.

At ngayon, nagdudusa ako ng ganito.

I loved her....since then. I knew it to myself, but I keep on denying because I was too scared to risk. I was a coward who was too scared of falling in love.

Way back then, when I was about to confess to her, the accident happened. I saw my twin lying on the road, covered with her own blood. It was traumatic for me. I was traumatized with that.

When the doctor told us about her condition, we needed to leave. They have decided to leave abroad.

I wasn't able to bid my farewell. I wasn't able to tell her how I feel. And we just left like that.

Throughout the years, when Brynn couldn't remember her at all, I did. I've been thinking of her all the time. Walang oras na hindi ko siya inisip.

And there, she showed up chasing me. But as a brother who needed to protect his twin, I rejected her. I pushed her away. Sinaktan ko siya.

The doctor said it might worsen Brynn's condition kaya ginawa ko ang lahat para protektahan siya. Even when it means losing the woman I love since then.

Riona have done ridiculous things to my sister. I understand her, but I needed to act cold. I needed to act strong to protect my twin. Even when it meant hurting the woman I love.

Then Sean came to the picture.

I wasn't expecting it at all. I wasn't thinking that someone would show up and be with her. I envied him, my best friend.

He had her. He was holding her hand. He was hugging her tight. He was protecting her at all cost. The things that I should be the one doing, but I couldn't.

I was envious. I was mad at myself for being a coward. I needed to be a protector, a brother—more than being a lover. I needed to choose between being a protector and a lover. I have chosen to be a brother because that was the right decision among the two.

I needed to choose. I needed to choose the path where I had to be. Even when it means killing the happiness I should have felt. Even when it means killing the love, I couldn't even push away.

I love her, so much. My life has been so fucked up because she wasn't here with me. She was in someone else's arms. I am mad. She should have been mine. But I did nothing to make her mine.

I've waited for so long. For the right time. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi na baleng hindi ako ang unang nobyo niya. Hindi na baleng hindi ako ang unang yakap at halik niya. Ang mahalaga, ako ang makakasama niya habang buhay. Ang importante, ako ang lalaking magdadala sa kanya sa harapan ng altar. Ang importante, ako ang magiging ama ng mga anak niya. But I was too late. I proposed to late.

She rejected me. She said she's pregnant with my best friend's child. At bilang sobrang desperado ko, handa akong maging ama sa hindi ko naman anak. Handa akong magpakaama sa batang hindi sa akin, kung ang kapalit non ay makasama ang babaeng mahal ko habang buhay. But I was never given a chance.

Hindi ako nabigyan ng pagkakataon para ipakita sa kanya kung gaano ko siya kamahal. Hindi ako nabigyan ng pagkakataon na sabihin sa kanya kung gaano ko siya kamahal at kung paano ako kung wala siya sa buhay ko.

I was too late.

"Enoch"

I immediately wiped away my tears as I treid to smile and faced her.

"Are you okay?", nag-aalalang tanong ni Brynn

Ngumiti ako at tumango bilang pagsagot. Habang siya ay naglakad papalapit sakin at naupo sa tabi ko. Niyakap niya ko ng mahigpit at isinandal ang ulo niya sa dibdib ko.

I felt my shirt slowly getting damp and as I looked at my twin, she was already crying.

"Hey, stop crying. I'm okay. I mean, yes I am not. But I will be okay soon", sambit ko

"I'm sorry", umiiyak na sambit niya

"Brynn, it's not your fault okay? Don't be too guilty for something you never did", sambit ko

Umiling-iling siya at mas lalong yumakap sakin.

"No. Kung hindi dahil sakin, hindi siya mawawala sayo. Pinili mong mas maging kapatid kaysa habulin iyong babaeng mahal mo. Pinili mong protektahan ako kahit na alam mong mawawala siya sayo. Kasalanan ko. Kasalanan ko lahat", umiiyak na sabi ni Brynn

Hindi ako nagsalita at sinubukang pigilan ang pagluha ko.

"If only...I haven't forgotten about her and we needed to leave, sana, kayo na. If only, I wasn't to weak that I had to suffer from amnesia, sana, nagawa mo pa siyang habulin. If only...."

"Shhh, stop it. I am not blaming you for anything. Siguro nga, ito lang yung nakatakda para sa aming dalawa", sabat ko sa kanya

Kumalas siya sa pagkakayakap at tinignan ako. Seeing her cry like this, breaks my heart and makes me want to cry too.

Gusto ko siyang sisihin. Gusto kong magalit sa kanya. Pero hindi ko magawa. Kapatid ko siya at tungkulin kong protektahan siya.

Tama lang iyong ginawa kong desisyon. Kaso lang, kinailangan kong makasakit ng iba para mailigtas ang isa.

"Kakausapin ko siya", sambit ni Brynn

Napatawa ako ng mahina at napayuko.

"Huwag na nating pilitin ang hindi pwede. Mas lalo lang tayong masasaktan", sambit ko

Gusto ko ring ipagpilitan.

Kung hindi siya ang binigay ng Diyos para sakin.....hindi pwede, dapat ipilit natin. Joke. Hahahaha.

Pero wala na eh. Desisido na siya at hindi ako ang pinili niya. Mahal ko siya, mahal niya ko, pero hindi kami pwedeng dalawa.

Pinagtagpo pero hindi itinadhana.

"Naniniwala ka talagang buntis siya kay Sean?", tanong ni Brynn

Alam kong....hindi.

Ginawa lang niyang rason iyon para kumawala sakin. She wanted to escape from me so bad that she had to reason that out. Sa dami ng rason niya, iyon talaga ang napili niya. Alam niya kung paano ako sasaktan ng sobra.

"Kasi ako, hindi ako naniniwala. I am confident with that. Hindi sa pagiging mayabang, but I know that Sean's too in love with me para buntisin ang ibang babae", sambit niya

Napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya at nakita kong pinunasan niya ang luha niya pero patuloy pa rin iyon sa pagtulo.

"Brigid, promised me way back then. She will never love someone else as much as she loves you. She promised", sambit ni Brynn habang nakayuko

"Brynn", gulat na sambit ko

Napayuko siya at napatawa ng mahina habang patuloy pa rin sa pag-iyak.

"Yes, I rememeber. I remember her now. I remember everything now. I remember Riona Brigid Leblanc, my witch best friend", sambit niya saka siya tumawa dahil sa huling sinabi niya

Brynn....why did you remember her too late?