Spark in the darkness (Inspired by Why Don't We)

14. New start

There was dark in the room, but I could see the silhouette of a tall slender boy with spiky blonde hair and sparkly blue eyes clearly.

He was sitting next to me, stroking my hair.

"He didn't mean it, Emi. Mike thought he was doing good for you. You know how hard it is to watch the person you love with somene else." He said with a light smile playing on his pink lips.

I smiled a little. "How comes it you're so smart, Cay?"

He laughed and the sound of it helped me to feel better. "You know I was always smart. You have to talk to Jack and sort things out." He added, serious again.

I whined. "How? He doesn't read my messages!" A tear escaped my eye. Cay smiled at me. "Don't tell me, sis, that you don't know where to find him."

Of course. He had to be at the skate park. I messed it up.

As if he could read my thoughts, he said. "I can't read your mind, I just know you too well. You'll solve it tomorrow, yeah? Let it be, at least for now.

Mike will understand, you have to try to get him. You wouldn't judge him if you were in his shoes. You have to talk to him, otherwise you'll be depressed and God knows what he can do if you stay mad at him."

I looked at him with my eyes wide open. "You think he could...try to take his life?" He shook his head. "No, I don't think so. But who could have thought you would want to do it?"

That felt like a slap in the face. I felt so sick of myself. "I'm sorry, Cay." I sobbed.

He smiled. "I knew you would try it, but I hoped that you wouldn't actually do it. I'm not blaming you. I would have felt the same way if it was you who died."

A soft smile crossed his lips. "Don't think about it now, Emi. Sleep. I'll stay with you."

I felt calm out of a sudden. It was thanks to Cay.

I realized that I never lost him. He was always next to me. I was carrying a piece of him everywhere I went, because he was still part of me. The same blood that was running through my veins used to run in his. He was written in my DNA and in my heart.

As soon as I woke up, I felt even more miserable than the day before. I checked my phone instantly to see if Jack responded, but there was silence on his side of the phone. A soft sob escaped out of my lips when I remembered that my best friend had ruined everything just because of jealousy.

I felt so empty and lost without Jack. I didn't want to lose him and I refused to accept it, since I had fallen for him head over heels.

I smiled when I remembered his laugh and the sparkles in his chocolate brown eyes. I shut my eyes when I recalled the sensation of his lips burning on mine.

We didn't know each other that much, however, that couldn't change my mind. I knew I had to fight for him, because I just realized that I fell in love with him.

A pain clenched my heart when a thought of hurt and disappointed Jack occured in my mind. A few tears fell down my face, but before I could start feeling sorry for myself I remembered what Cay had told me in my dream.

My phone buzzed, signalling that I received a message. I unlocked it eagerly, hoping it was from Jack, but saddened when I read the name: Ashley.

I sighed, knowing she would try to defend Mike, as usual.

Hi Em, I know what Mike did yesterday really upset you, but he regrets it. Could you at least talk to him about it? You didn't let him explain and I know you're fully aware that it was hard for him to show his feelings like this to you, so don't make it even worse. You always told him to fight for his dreams and when he does so, you dump him