Spark in the darkness (Inspired by Why Don't We)

17. Fearless

On Monday morning I woke up as a new person, better version of Emma. I couldn't quite describe that warm feeling that was growing inside of me, but it was very pleasant. I was positive that it was caused by the reconciliation with Mike. But then I remembered Jack saying that when you run, your body stimulates endorphines. I had to admit that even though my legs hurt terribly, I was feeling more satisfied with myself.

I growled when I saw that day's timetable. There was P. E. waiting for us. I couldn't picture myself running after yesterday's jogging lesson with Jack.

I texted him. Good morning, love. We have P.E. today

He answered seconds later. And that's supposed to mean...?

I laughed and typed.That today I'll be just watching you on the ramps. I don't have enough energy for anything else :)

I could practically see him laughing at me, looking adorable with his curly hair falling into his eyes.

Guess we'll have to go jogging more often :D

When I came to school, I saw Ashley running towards me. She hugged me, while I stammered. "Hi, Ash. Nice to see you too." I laughed.

"Very funny, Em. I'm so happy. We're fine again, all three of us." She was smiling like a fool. I nodded, going with her happy act. "Yes, I'm so glad we are."

I put my arm around her, while she smiled happily and then saw Mike. He waved at us with his big smile on his face and I instantly knew we were alright.

Mike came behind us and separated us by hugging me with his right arm and Ashley with his left. He said. "Hello, ladies."

I couldn't help but wonder how he might be feeling. Because now that I knew about his feelings towards me, I couldn't be the same around him, but tried my hardest not to show it. So I just enjoyed us having fun together again.

People around us were giving us weird looks and immediately started talking to their friends, which meant only one thing - new gossip was on its way. My throat felt suddenly clenched and I knew that Mike must have sensed it because he warned them angrily out of the blue.

"Is it that hard to mind your own business?" He growled and the gossip stopped as soon as it started.

I whispered. "Thank you, Mike." He shot me a glare and said. "That's obvious, Em. They are like wolves." He commented disgustedly.

I agreed. "Yes, they really are." Feeling immediately angry at the people.

I spent the first two periods mentally preparing myself for the sports lesson, even though I was actually paying attention to what the teachers were saying.

My chemistry teacher, Mr. Berg, asked me, trying to catch me not paying attention as usually. "What do we get when we put together sodium hydroxide and sulfuric acid, Emma?"

I looked at him and said. "We get water and a salt, in this case it would be sodium sulfate, sir."

He looked suprised that I knew it and so did my classmates. They all looked at me like I was a weirdo. I couldn't blame them though; I was out of my mind for the past ten weeks, so it must have been really odd hearing me answering the question.

Mr. Berg nodded. "Correct. Welcome back, Ms. Harrisson." He gave me one of his rare smiles and I smiled too.

It was nice to feel like that again. The constant feeling of loss that was accompanying me since Cay's accident, better said killing, didn't disappear by just a blick of an eye, but I was learning how to live with it and even the fact that now it wasn't stopping me from the ability to breathe and think straight was a big progress.