Always you (sequel to love is love)

14: Niall

23/8/19

Louis found out yesterday, he found out about our little baby.

Ever since I left I've been feeling so guilty, I want him to see Romeo so much but i don't want Romeo to have a dad who's never there as horrible as it sounds.

The fact I grew up with my mum and dad together I would feel horrible if Romeo had to grow up moving house to house but it may have to be done

I've been a mess since last night, I've barely stopped crying unless I needed to love my baby. He's the only thing keeping me sane right now or else I would of been gone

Niall decided to stay like the angel he is, he didn't wanna leave me alone. So we agreed he could stay, he is in the spare room right now

He has been absolutely amazing all night, you wouldn't believe we only met yesterday, we're so close already

I completely understand why Louis would be annoyed if Niall and him still spoke and if I had ended it with Louis on good terms. But I didn't get anything off him, a explanation, a sorry, nothing. So I have no respect for him.

I yawned and sat up tiredly. I barely got any sleep I've just been thinking

I picked up my phone

Lottie: Reagan I am so sorry, he wouldn't let me have my phone and I couldn't stop him coming to Liams. I don't know what happened Reags but he came back to mine last night a mess, he was absolutely destroyed. X

Tears slid from my eyes at the thought of him being upset, but I've been like this for the past year while he's been off living a dream life

Reagan: I'm sorry lotts, I didn't mean to upset him but some of the things he said were horrible. He knows about Romeo, I let it slip as I was annoyed at him and we argued a lot x

Lottie: omg, that will be why he's such a mess, he's in the guest room right now and hasn't moved since last night. Maybe you two should talk? X

Reagan: I'm sorry Lottie but I don't think I can, I'm so sorry he had to find out like this and all of that but he made me feel so small, some of the things he said got to me so much, I don't know if I can face him x

Lottie: that's understandable, I'll try speak to him and update you x

I sighed and put my head in my hands as my head pounded

All of a sudden my baby started screaming and I rushed over to get him

"Hey baby boy calm" I said hushing him and changed his bum

We went through to the living room and I got him a bottle and sat on the couch to feed him it

A bit later Niall came through rubbing his eyes making me giggle

"Morning" he said in his sexy morning

Wow Reags calm

"Morning, sorry if he woke you" I said

"Oh no he didn't don't worry about me Reags as long as your okay" Niall said and sat next to me as I fed the baby

"Can I feed him?" Niall asked and I raised my eyebrows

"You wanna?" I asked and he nodded

I handed Romeo over and Niall held him supporting his head

"You put it in that's way" I said showing him the upwards side of the bottle

Niall did so and Romeo just stared up at him

"God Reagan he's so beautiful" Niall said as he admired him

"I say that to myself every day, I must be biased though" I said

"No your definitely not, he's perfect, just like his mama" Niall said looking up and me and I looked him in the eyes

"Your too much mr horan" I said and he grinned before winking and looking away

"How are you feeling" Niall asked me seeming concerned

"I don't know, I'm confused, I feel guilty, sad, angry all in one" I said and Niall sighed

"Don't feel guilty, you have every right to be angry at him, I honestly don't even recognise him anymore, he's not the same Louis i was friends with" Niall said with distaste in his voice "I miss my buddy"

"I'm sorry Ni, you lost a friend too" I said and took his hand making him smile "it's fine, we will survive with our him in both our lives"

"You don't ever have to worry about being alone Reagan, you have me now, whatever way that's in, it's crazy we have only known each other a day, I fee like I've known you years" Niall said rubbing circles in my hand while feeding Romeo still

"I appreciate that, you always have me from now on too" I said "and I know but I feel like cause I've loved one direction I feel like I know you a lot more"

"And I've been watching you on Instagram for 9 months waiting for updates" niall said making me laugh "not in a creepy way"

"Sureee" I joked and he pouted "well you don't need my instagram any more at least, here's the real life version" I said

He looked me up and down making me grin

"And it's more amazing than anything ever, and this little guy is a bonus" Niall said and smiled to Romeo

"Your so good with him" I said and Niall smiled

"Well if this was this time two years ago, I would of been his uncle Ni and his dads best friend, so why not now" Niall said and I smiled at how much he meant to me already

I left a kiss on Nialls cheek before lying my head on his shoulder

"Thank you for being here for me Niall, it means so much" I said and Niall nodded

"Just because Louis knows about Romeo now, doesn't change anything we said in Nandos yesterday" Niall said "I'm gonna help you move on for him no matter how hard it may be, anything for you Reags"

I smiled, I felt, I felt happy in this moment, which you may think, you were sad a hour ago. But that's what Niall promised, to help me get over it and he's already helped me in the past hour be more happy. 

For the first time in so long, I felt like I had someone I could depend on and that I could trust properly

Of course I had the girls, my friends and family, but Niall, he's different.

We lay like this most of the day until like 2 pm until we decided to get up.