Always you (sequel to love is love)

25: Smiles

27/10/19

Since me and Louis little heart to heart we have been amazing, as friends and I'm glad he knows that I'm not ready, it's now about a month later.

We know that we both love each other loads but I need to make sure that it's for good and the fact he's willing to wait shows me that he does love me

I do believe him to be honest, I just need to make myself know that it's for good this time

He's been over almost everyday and Romeo adores him so much

We went to see Freddie and Briana and they adore Romeo, Briana was absolutely lovely and welcoming and Freddie is so beautiful, he adores Romeo and promised to be a good big brother, he's a little cutie

Seeing Louis with both them melted my heart. He is a amazing father to both boys and I regret ever doubting he would be good to Romeo

Ro is such a good baby, he is so good at sleeping, he still gets up for feeds but that's understandable. He absolutely loves Niall honestly, if he's crying just give him to Niall and he will stop which is amazing

He's also like that with Louis but more obviously as Louis is his dad and sees him all the time.

I can tell Louis is finding it hard not to kiss me or be loving but we agreed that we would wait until we're ready, we haven't kissed since the day that we were both crying but I know we can trust each other a lot more after that

We both know it's gonna happen it's just a matter of when, I know we both love each other though.

Today is a lazy day and Louis is coming over later on to watch movies and that even thought Romeo can't watch.

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It's now later on and Louis is on his way over, I have made spaghetti for food as he said he was Hungry and so was I

Romeo still breastfeeds, he usually does breastfeeding during the night and morning, then bottles during the day

Romeo was currently laying on my chest just cuddling me, he loved a cuddle and he could lie there so long

I was laid back, His head was lying on my boob and he had his little and around as much of my waist as it could and his other hand in his mouth sucking on his thumb, my hand rested under his bum

He's honestly a little angel

I stared at him in adoration, I can't believe he's over two months now, nearly three, it's crazy it's went so fast

I was just cuddling my baby enjoying the moment as I know he was growing so fast

I want to see him grow up so much but I also want him to stay my little baby forever

I heard the front door open and knew it would be Louis as he just lets his self in

He came through and smiled seeing me and Romeo laying on the couch

"Hey love" he said "is he asleep"

I shook my head

"No he's awake, just giving mummy a cuddle" I said and Louis laughed

"Lucky guy" Louis joked making me roll my eyes playfully

Louis moves my legs and sat where they were before placing my legs on his lap

He leaned down to see romeos face which was facing the back of the couch

"Hey baby boy" Louis said and Romeo immediately started to squirm

He's definitely a daddy's boy, whenever he sees Louis he immediately wants to go to him

I moved my legs of Louis knee and sat up next to him

"You wanna go see dada" I said and Louis picked him us and Louis sat him on his knee facing him so he could he his little face, his hands holding under both his arms to support him and hold his head at the back

"My pretty boy" Louis said "how's my boy"

Romeo just made noises happy to see his dad

Louis made faces to him and Romeo just stared up at him with his eyes wide

Romeo loves him so much it's so cute.

"I missed you" Louis said in a baby voice "oh yes I did"

I watched and Romeo just stared and I smiled

"Already can tell your gonna get all the ladies little lad, handsomest boy ever" Louis said and then kissed his nose

I was shocked as a smile broke out on romeos face

"Louis" I squealed " he smiled when you kissed him" I said excitedly as this was his first smile

"He did?" Louis asked shocked and I nodded frantically

"Do it again" I said and this time Louis opened his eyes and kissed Romeo on the nose and his face broke out in a smile again

"Oh my god" Louis cheered "thats my boy"

"Omg I can't believe it, he has the most precious smile ever, I love you baby" I said to my baby and kissed him all over Louis grinning

I made Louis do it again and I took a picture which turned out amazing

Louis kissing romeos nose with so much love in his eyes and Romeo smiling up at his dad

I set it as my lock screen as it's my world in one picture

After a while Romeo fell asleep and we put him in his cot in my room and I made sure I had the monitor near me in the living room

"I wanna ask you something" Louis said and I nodded for him to go ahead

"Will you go out with me on Friday night?" Louis asked nervously and I raised my eyebrow

"As in a date?" I asked and he looked panicked

"I mean yeah but I get if your not ready like it's completely upto you and if your not ready don't worry I don't mind and I'll wait" Louis rushes out and I giggled

"Louis, calm love" I laughed "of course I will, I think I'm ready to at least go on a date"

"Really?" Louis asked shocked and I nodded

"Fresh start isn't it" I said "I'll need to get someone to watch Ro"

"Already spoke to Niall and he said him and Harry will watch him on Friday night" Louis said and I raised my eyebrows

"So you knew I would say yes" I asked and he looked scared

"I didn't I just needed to ask in case you did and I'm so happy you did baby" Louis said and I smiled

"Of course Louis, Friday it is" I said

"It's our second first date" Louis smiled making me smile "I'll pick you up at 7"

I nodded and grinned

Our second first date, I can't wait