Always you (sequel to love is love)

21: I love you

12/9/19

It's now been a week since Louis' little speech and it hasn't went out my head. But I'm scared, I'm scared to let myself love again.

Tomorrow is Niall's birthday and he is having a party but smaller than Liams. He invited all the boys including Louis which shocked me but I suppose they were friends

He also invited his family, his friends, Lewis capaldi! Which I am so excited about, a few other celebrities will be there too. Me and Romeo will be going and there will be no paps as it's a private party so I'm taking Ro

He's now a month old which is crazy to think. I gave birth a whole month ago

Today me and Niall are going out with Liam and Maya, my mums gonna look after Romeo

Me and Niall are getting along so well and I do think I like the boy but I'm confused cause of everything. This is the first boy I've got to know since Louis.

Liam and Maya asked if we wanted to go out to dinner with them and we agreed.

My mum and dad offered to have Romeo over night again cause he was so good last time so I hesitantly accepted

So they are staying here again and I'm staying at Nialls tonight.

I'm actually really nervous cause anything could happen

I felt my phone buzz on the sofa as I was sitting with Romeo and I picked it up

Unknown number: hey it's Louis, got your number of Lottie, wondering if I can see little man soon? And maybe you too x

Reagan: hey, yeah that's fine, I'm busy tonight so my mums watching him, Nialls party tomorrow, you going?

We haven't brought up what happened last week but we have been getting along for Romeos sake

Romeo is getting so big and he's changing so much but still has the same cheeky face

My phone went off again

Louis: what you up to tonight? And yeah the lads my mate at the end of the day, feel bad for being a dick to him x

Reagan: I'm not gonna lie to you I'm going out with Niall, Liam and Maya and yeah don't feel bad but glad your coming, I'm bringing Romeo x

I sighed and looked at my baby kissing his head

"I love you so much" I said to the baby knowing he doesn't understand, but The love I feel for him it unreal

Louis: oh, Well i can watch the little man over night if you want, I miss him :( x

Reagan: you don't have to Louis x

Louis: nah I want to babe honestly, I want to be in his life as much as I can x

Reagan: okay if your sure I'll message my mum x

I put my phone down and got up to go message my mum, I did and then got a text off Niall

Niall: hey babe, sorry gonna have to cancel tonight, somethings come up x

I frowned and shrugged it off

Reagan: okay ni x

I texted Liam and Maya and decided I didn't wanna third wheel so I will just stay in.

I put Romeo down in his hammock before sitting back on the sofa

I picked up my phone and phoned Louis to let him know, he picked up after a couple rings