kathleen

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kathleen's pov:
oh my god. will he just walk right past me? will he say something? either way i don't think i'll be able to cope. i stare down into my now cold chai latte when i hear the chair from my table get pulled out. i look up and i see van.
"mind if i sit?" he asks, warmth in his tone.
what do i say? can't really say 'no van you can't sit here because i'll cry if i look at your face because i've missed you so much even though you kissed another girl in front of me' so i just go with "sure."
we sit in silence for a good five minutes. i don't know what to say. and neither does he. god why does this whole love thing have to be so hard?
"i think your coffee's going cold love." he says.
i realise that my coffee is only half drunk and the half that's not been drunk has been sitting for the past half hour. "oh yeah, right." i answer. i don't know what else to say. i pick up my cup and take a swig of the stone cold latte. it wasn't particularly great, but it could be worse.
"so," van starts "what have you been up to lately?"
"not much," i reply, "i stopped working at the caf, got a job at the bookstore across the road, that's about it."
"that's good. i didn't know you liked books?"
"i love books. i wish i could read a book every day."
"what's stopping you then?" he asks
"i don't know, i guess i just don't have the time."
"make time then. always make time for the stuff you love."
"yeah, i guess. thanks" i reply.

van's pov:
the conversation dies again. we sit in silence for the second time. i try not to stare at her beauty. i clearly don't try hard enough though, because i find my eyes fixated on hers.
"how's your girlfriend?" she says, out of nowhere.
"what girlfriend?" i answer. does she think i have a girlfriend?
"the one you kissed at the bar." she says, coldly.
"kath, i need you to know that meant nothing. it was in the heat of the moment." i try to keep my voice as quiet as possible. we're in a café full of people for God's sake. she doesn't reply.
"i don't have a girlfriend." i pause. "i want you."
i take her hand and clasp both of mine around it.
"listen kath, i missed you. so much."
"i missed you too van. but nothing ever seems to go
our way. it's like the universe doesn't want us to be together." she spoke.
"look kath if we want to be together we can make it work. if you want this as much as i do. we keep running into each other. surely that's a sign or something to you."
she doesn't respond for a good few minutes.

kathleen's pov:
"van i-" i start, but cut myself off. "i love you van. but there's always something. you're always busy touring, or you're in LA, recording, and you're 7 hours behind. i just don't see how we can make it work." and that's the truth. i love him. so much. but it's unfair to keep trying, when we know that in the end it never works out.
"i know. i know it seems that way kath but it will work if we want it to. you've gotta trust me darlin'." he assures me.
"van, how can i trust you after you kissed another girl?" i retort. it's hard to trust him. he's always somewhere else with someone else.
"kath let's not do this here. let's go back to mine."
i don't really say much. i just walk with him back to his car. i hate that i've missed it. i hate that i've missed him.