Call Out My Name // Ben Solo

Not A Jedi

Ben wasn't always moody, distant, or snarky. That was until his father, Han Solo, and Chewbacca, who was like another uncle to him, left. They had diplomatic appointments all over the galaxy. His mother was running the rebellion, and to put it simply, didn't have time for him. So for him to see his mother having tea with a girl who had just arrived to Yavin 4 made him angry. He didn't like her, she was too short, her hair was too blonde, and was such a know it all. Now she was going to have to go to the temple that HIS uncle owned and ran. Still the touch of her hand to his, was something that he could not explain nor did he want an explanation as to why he felt what he felt. 

That following week, at the Jedi temple, he saw Dorian wearing robes that were completely different from him and the other Padawans in the temple, which made him mad for some reason. He saw her speaking with Luke, and then looked over to Ben, and motioned for him to come over to where they were. With an eye roll he groaned and plodded over till he was in front of them. "Ben, this Dorian, Dorian this my nephew Ben, giving a smirk, Ben said "I know I met her already". Luke could see that his nephew didn't like Dorian, for whatever reason that was, so Luke being Luke, with pleasantness knowing it would aggravate Ben, but hopefully learn to control his emotions more, said "Well good then, you wouldn't mind being her peer mentor during training.", Ben was not happy hearing that. "But she's a kid, I don't want to teach a kid". Dorian snapped back, "You're a kid too".

Luke interjected "Enough. Now Ben, you know you are one of my star pupils, advanced beyond most of my other padawans. This will help with your training, more than you realize. I'm trusting you do the right thing." 

Dorian starred down not wanting Ben to be embarrassed, she heard his groan and then him mutter "fine, hey Dorian or whatever your name is, see that chest over there, those are training sabers, get one." Dorian walked over to the chest and pulled out a saber. She had never seen one in real life, but heard the stories about them. She walked back over and stood next to Ben when Luke looked between the both of them and was in deep thought, before saying "You two can use the balcony, and Ben remember, control your emotions" 

Ben nodded, and Dorian did the same, because she wasn't sure what to do. Ben scoffed at her, then turned and left towards the balcony with Dorian right behind him. 

"Okay stand there" He instructed, as he placed her in one spot then backing himself up putting distance between them by 8ft or so. Ben unsheathed his saber, that caused Dorian to jolt back slightly. Ben looked at her annoyed "OkAy itsss ...your turn". Dorian looked at the light saber and saw the button, she held it away from her and pushed it, the whooshing sound and intense made her yelp and drop it. "Sorry" she said shaking off her nerves and picked it up again, unsheathing it, she mirrored Ben's stance, and waited for instruction. He smirked knowing he had a level of authority over someone. He started to teach her basic defense stance, the same few moves over and over. Dorian was just going through the motions blocking out everything in her mind except Ben's voice. Her city being destroyed, her parents, this new place. All of it, blocked out. After awhile, Ben's uncle Luke came out observing the two of them, Ben was actually being very calm with his instructions, and Dorian moving fluidly when he charged the order of each defensive move. They were working well together. "Ben, that's enough" he said placing his hand on his nephews shoulder. The tall dark haired boy, bowed slightly, and before he went back into the temple he looked at Dorian who looked back at him and gave the smallest smile. 

"Come have a seat" Luke said walking over to the outside sitting area in the corner of the balcony. Dorian sat across from him, unsure of what to do. "You can relax you know?" said Luke. Dorian dropped her shoulders and the tightness of her face and breathed out slowly "Sorry, I just-" she wasn't sure what to say. "Unsure?", Dorian shook her head "No, i'm sure actually, I'm sure my parents are gone, i'm sure that my home is gone, and i'm sure that i'm not a Jedi, or force sensitive or whatever it is that General Organa thinks I am." 

Luke leaned forward, "Wow, everything you just said...was wrong", making Dorian lean back in her seat slightly. He continued "My child, none of us are ever really gone, and home well that can be wherever you are, with people who care for one another-" Dorian scoffed and interrupted "-and me being a Jedi".

Luke smirked "No, you are not a Jedi...not yet anyways, but my sister and myself are sure that you have the potential to be one. Now I will show you to your new dormitory." He said standing up. "Wait, the General is your sister? Is she a Jedi too? And I thought I was staying in the temporary placement housing?". Luke turned, you'll find out over time, and padawans learners stay in the dormitories just next door. Theres a chamber at the end of the hall across from, Ben". Dorian breathed out and followed Luke to the dorms, and down the long and cold grey hall with metal doors spaced out. They made their way to the end and Luke told her to touch the thumb pad, that gained her access to the small room, it was bare and plain. It had a bookcase, a small bed, and a bedside table. There were blankets folded on the bed and what looked to be 2 changes of clothes. "Change into your lounge wear, and Ben will show you where the cantine is, just knock on his door" and with that he left. Dorian, began to change her clothes as instructed, she was doing any and everything to not think..about anything. She was to afraid too. After changing, she opened her door and starred at Bens door, she could faintly hear music coming from his room, she held her head up, and knocked on the door with force. 

The color drained from her face and then turned pink when Ben answered the door without a shirt on. "What do you want?" he said plainly. "Uh..you-I..urm, your uncle..cantine- show me" she couldn't get the words out correctly, she had never really been around boys before, and now here was one, a Jedi trainee, a prince..and he was shirtless." 

Ben looked at her with an odd expression and repeated "What?". Dorian took a deep breath and closed her eyes and quickly said "Yourunclewantsyoutotakemetothecantine" She then heard Ben scoff and say "whatever" as he went to grab a shirt. He walked past her with her following closely. He could feel her starring at him, and it began to annoy him, the two of them made their way to the cantine, he broke away from her and met up with some of the other padawans who were ahead in line. Dorian fell in line and waited to get her food, which was some kind of stew, bread, a sweet cake, and water.  She smiled at the cantine worker as she took her tray. Starring at the dining hall, there wasn't many kids her age, but she saw Ben sitting at the end of a table in the middle of a room, like a king. She knew this was stupid, but she was desperate to make friends, and Ben was seemingly nice during training. Making her way over to the table she recited what she wanted to say over and over again so she wouldn't stumble on her words. "Hi, can..I sit here?", Ben and his two other friends, looked at her and then burst into laughter. Which then caused everyone else to look at her. 

Dorian dropped her head and made her way to the nearest exit with her tray in hand, and down the long pathway that led out of the temple and down to the main road that would take you up to a neighborhood, with forest behind them on side that the temple was on. 

Dorian focused on the direction she should go, she made her way down the woods till she came to the edge of water. She sat down on a flat rock, crossing her legs, and placing her tray in her lap. She started to feel overwhelmed as she looked out at the water, her eyes started to fill with tears and her face grew warm, as she began to weep. She felt so alone.