I Lost Her When She Lost Her Weight R-18

CHAPTER FIFTEEN: Neglect

Gretel's POV

I fell straight down to the gym's floor after getting my face hit with the goddamn ball by the extra goddamn person. I winced as I felt a stain of blood running through my nose. The sight of it, gave me a dizzy feeling. I heard people flock over me.

"My bad. Let me bring you to the clinic."

I'm never too dizzy to complain.

"No, I can handle." I wiped out the stain of blood from my nose using the back of my hand. It smeared a little bit across my cheeks.

I quickly stood up and acted okay until I saw the person in front of me.

Of all people

Parang gusto kong alugin ulit yung ulo ko gaya ng pagkaka tama ng bola sakin. Nahilo ako ulit bigla.

"Miss Francisco" tawag sa akin ng PE Prof namin

I threw her a glance and saw worry painted in her face the moment she saw blood smearing my face.

I noticed her quickly shifting her view to this annoying man in front of me. She gestured, asking to help bring me to the clinic.

"I'll take her" Oh thank God for Harris.

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I don't feel anything awful so I was allowed to go after receiving medical attention from the clinic. Outside were the girls from the game.

"Gret! Are you good?"

They all checked on me and my nose.

"It was nothing. Were you all waiting for me here?"

They all nodded. But at the end of the bench outside the clinic was someone else. They all threw him a glance as they signalled him to come over. And, yes he did.

"I am so sorry. I didn't mean to hit you at all." worry flooded Sanford's face. I would have felt soft for him but deep inside I doubted how fun this again could be for this man.

"You didn't have to come."

I then checked on the girls and asked if I could go ahead which they all agreed. I feel awful having to question their sincerity. Because if I were the old fat girl from before, I doubt they'd disgust and would never really thought of waiting for me outside the clinic at all.

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I decided to head to the theatre as it is where most of the Music students practice. Gusto ko sanang makita si Cream. I owe her a lot and wanted to see how she's already been.

The moment I arrived Cebu, I remember still trying to communicate with her. She would try to video call me everyday but it pains me seeing her trying to pursuade me in going back to Manila. If she only knew. But I couldn't tell her. I don't have the strength to tell her how the people she warned me would ruin me actually did. I can't allow hate to completely banish her from trying to be better and not be like the old me. But distance eventually surpassed us. I made myself too busy recovering, it was too late before I realized how I neglected her. I had a hard time reaching her the moment I was finally okay back because she then already thought she was causing my toxicity. She thought I was avoiding her and that I could only be better if I could be away from her. I tried to explain several times how difficult it was for me to go back but it was all too late.

Everyone in the theatre were already packing their instruments back to their cases. Pero hindi ko parin nakikita si Cream kaya hindi ko na natiis kundi magtanong.

"Do you happen to know Camrila Fuentes?"

"She was sent abroad for a performance. She'd be back in a month pa daw eh."

"Sige po, salamat."

I smiled with the thought. Now I feel better knowing how Cream has finally found her wings even without me by her side.