I Lost Her When She Lost Her Weight R-18

CHAPTER TEN: The Biggest Heartbreak

GRETEL'S POV

Parang tumigil ang ikot ng mundo.

Parang tumigil ang oras..

ang galaw ng mga tao..

at ang tibok ng puso ko.

Napatingin ako sa mukha niya.

"I'm sorry Gret," I can't help but just look at him.

"but I promised you something I couldn't break."

I was in disbelief. Pakiramdam ko ay panaginip lang lahat ng nangyayari. I tried to wake myself by checking the evironment out. I did it to calm myself down too. But from my back, I saw Lara.

The heat of the sun felt like arrows through my skin. How could all of these happen all at once? How am I expected to bear all of these?

So, he decided to kiss me in front of Lara and the whole campus just so he can take his revenge and humiliate her. He decided to take advantage of his silly joke thinking I would enjoy it and at the same time make Lara feel worse for seeing his ex-boyfriend kiss a fat ass like me in public.

It's obvious he couldn't like back a fat firl like me. Let alone someone who's been obsessing over him for years. He couldn't see me for who I am. And now that I thought I had even the slightest chance of him knowing I exist, it was still all for Lara. Never to see the real me.

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Nagpalipas ako ng araw sa cafe malapit sa school. Lumubog nalang ang araw pero hindi ko pa rin mahanap ang tamang rason kung bakit kailangan kong mapagdaanan ang kanina.

"Gretel?" napalingon ako sa nagsalita.

"Cream!" niyakap ko siya. I can't help but whip.

"Shhh. 'Wag mo muna yung isipin. Birthday mo remember?" napabuntong-hininga ako. Nakalimutan ko muntik ang araw na ito. I smiled at her. May dala siyang cake at gift.

"Salamat Cream."

"Blow your candle!" she then lit the candle on top of the cake she brought.

I smiled at her. Ib-blow ko na sana iyon nang..

"Wait!" nangunot ang noo ko, "I'll need to sing first hehe..

Happy Birthday Gretel..

Happy Birthday Gretel..

Happy Birthday,

Happy Birthday,

Happy Birthday Gretel!"

Then, I blew it. I exhaled all my worries. Thank you Lord for giving me Cream before the day ends.

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GRETEL'S POV

Maaga akong nagpunta ng school. Alam kong maaga ngayon si Sanford for his morning routine as an athlete. I wanted to clear things out with him. I want to tell him what I thought he did and was inevetibly hoping he could prove all my inhibitions wrong. I wanted to let him know that I don't expect him to feel the same as I feel. I want to thank him for doing his promise, for saving my pride on the day of my birthday but to hear his real side too. I was willing to accept the truth nonetheless.

Wala pang masyadong tao sa school. Halos hindi pa sumisikat ang umaga. I looked at my wrist watch.

5:36 AM..

Bandang alas sais kung dumating ang mga soccer players. Nagwawarm-up kasi sila tuwing umaga. Madalas ay una rin kung dumating si Sanford.

Alam kong alam niya na crush ko siya. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko parin lubos na maisip kung bakit niya nagawa yun. Gusto kong maging bukas sa realidad, despite what happened. Yesterday seemed to be a fantasy, pero ayaw kong umasa. As much as possible, I want to be very transparent and real.