I Lost Her When She Lost Her Weight R-18

CHAPTER THREE: Broken

Sanford's POV

"San.." I was stunned by the voice calling out my name. Nakatalikod pa lang ako ay kilala ko na ang tumatawag sa akin.

"There's no need to explain, Lara" I spoke not looking back at her.

I couldn't bear to see her face. Her face would just bring out everything we've shared from our past.

"I didn't mean to hurt you." pagkasabi niyon ay hinawakan niya ang magkabilang braso ko from behind. Her touch confused me whether to feel her familiar care or disgust from what I knew she did. Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata sa isiping iyon.

Dammit! How can she pregnant from another man?

"I love you, San" she said with her voice drowned in tears.

"It just happened once. It was you I loved, San. We were both drunk. It was just a mistake.. I'm.."

"Shut up Lara!" mariing pagputol ko sa sinasabi niya sabay pagwisik nang mga kamay niya.

"Now you are bearing the mistake you've done! Then the hell being drunk Lara! I might believe it just happened once but it would not matter how many times you made out. You've wasted 3 years Lara, and you can't say anything to justify what you've done... just get out of my sight" ngunit hindi siya natinag despite what I've said.

Crap! How can she do this to me?

"I know you love me Sanford. Believe me, we can still patch things up. I can't imagine going on without you, please.. let's fix this." she insisted.

"Are you hearing your self?" I yelled at her.

She let go of a loud cry and inhaled deeply. I gritted my teeth from deep anger.

Bullshit!

I gave her everything she needed, space, respect and all. I've waisted 3 years with her. I had everything planned after college to eventually marrying her. She just left me in the open.

"We're done Lara, I definitely deserve better than this. I deserve someone better."

Pumait ang ekspresyon nya ngunit bumalik din ito sa dati nitong tema. She inhaled deeply, very close to giving up.

"If you could only give me a second chance..." seeing her tears falling from her eyes made me ache more.

Ilang beses ko na siyang nakitang umiyak but not because of pain. I have done everything just to make her smile. I've seen her cry but for 3 years it were only tears of joy. We would have small fights over the years but never to the extent of seeing her cry like this.

I wiped her tears. Galit ako sa kanya, yes. A part of me died knowing how she betrayed me but seeing her like this made me see how she paid for everything she have done.

"You had given me so much pain. But never think of this as the reason why I could say this.. I don't love you enough para akuin ang nagawa niyo ni Drake. I'm sorry Lara."

Kilala ko si Drake. He can be an asshole but I know he loves Lara too. I was just so stupid for not seeing the signs even from before. Drake was Lara's first love. But Drake got famous so young and landed a big break in showbiz so everything went south with him and Lara. I was Lara's rebound and I never knew it until now. We were all highschool classmates so I felt so stupid for not seeing such things. Nasa harap na yon ng mga mata ko.

I left her then with a cold sigh. The same time Lara came in to my life was the time my parents got divorced. For 3 years, she lifted me not sinking from the thought of breaking. I feel well rested recalling how much strength she gave me during those times despite the pain of knowing what she's done with Drake while still in a relationship with me.