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KWON Y/N POV

It's been about three weeks since I've stopped talking to Jeongin. In the beginning it was definitely hard, and it still is; but I'm getting used to it day by day. It's painful, but I knew it's for the better. I can't sit around and let him hurt me anymore. It hurts, but I know I'll be just fine without him if I put all of my will to it.

School was still canceled for the time being, we couldn't go back to school or go out in general, basically. All I could do is to be stuck at home with my brother, Soonyoung, and his dorky friend members. I've been keeping in touch with the other guys, and they seem to be losing their minds as much as I am.

Hyunjin is still the same, he told me he still had feelings for me the last time we video called. His feelings for me definitely bothered me a little, because I sadly don't feel the same way.. he definitely deserves better, and one day he will realize that.

It was awkward being at home with Jeongin at first, after everything that happened and the fact that we stopped talking in general. By the third week I've gotten used to it, I just act like he's not there. Sometimes, though, I can't help but notice he looks more aggressive than usual. His facial expression is always aggressive and gloomy looking, he barely smiles anymore.

I still worry about him, of course, but I can't let that get in the way of me letting go. I can feel my heart letting go of him day by day and it made me feel happier.

Right now, I was in the living room eating strawberry mushroom chocolates with Lee Chan. Soonyoung and the others had to go shopping for essentials such as toilet paper because he likes to take fat shits every five minutes. They've been out for 5 hours, and I'm guessing it's because people like to stock on stacks of toilet paper for absolutely no reason.

Lee Chan and I were sitting next to each other on the sofa, with the TV on that was playing our favorite drama that we like to watch together. Lee Chan and I have definitely gotten closer compared to before. I go to him for everything, he's basically my best friend at this point. I'm happy he came to stay with us.

"Yo, what's wrong with her!? She shouldn't get back with him!" Lee Chan breathes out frustratedly.

"You stupid bitch!" He curses at the TV.

"Chan, calm down." I try to hold in my laughter because he seemed genuinely mad.

"No, I can't! I mean, how dumb can she be? HE CHEATED ON YOU, DUMMY!!!" He shouts.

"AND YOU, YOU USELESS WOMANIZER! YOU'RE A SHRIMP! YOU'RE A PIECE OF TRASH!!!" He shouts again, pointing to one of the male characters.

I bite the inside of my lip to prevent me from bursting out of laughter. Lee Chan was actually pissed off because of a drama and it was hilarious. The way he yells at the TV screen is absolutely priceless. The way his eyes shrink when he yells is too funny.

He looks like a shriveled old man when he shouts.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, WOMAN?! HE PROBABLY HAS STDS, OR RABIES, AND YOU'RE STILL GOING BACK TO HIM!"

"OH MY GOD, YOU TOTAL WOMANIZER! YOU HAVE A SHRIMP! GO TO HELL! YOU DON'T DESERVE HER LOVE! YOU'RE A PIECE OF PATHETIC SHIT!"

"Chan.." I couldn't hold in my laughter any longer.