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KWON Y/N POV

It was about late afternoon that all of us decided to cook a big meal together, including Jeongin. We were all in the kitchen doing our own mini jobs to prepare the food; since there was 6 of us, we were able to work in partners so it was easier and faster.

My partner was Lee Chan. Jeongin and Jihoon were partners, leaving Soonyoung and Jeonghan together.

I knew Jeongin wouldn't have done this with us if I haven't had lied to him and told him I would wait for him until he gets better. He was genuinely trying to get better and it was honestly scary, he's never put in that much effort before. Part of me believes that he really does need me and love me, but the other part feels as if it's too toxic for us to be together.

Lee Chan and I were at the dinner table, cutting up vegetables next to each other while playing around.

"Broccoli broccoli~" he cooed while ruffling my hair.

"That's gross of you." I sarcastically remark.

"Stop being lovey dovey and do your work!" My brother shouts at us.

"Hyung, leave us alone!" Lee Chan argued back.

"We weren't being lovey dovey, dumb ass." I snort.

"You sure?" Jeonghan laughs.

We all got back to work until all of a sudden, Jeongin comes over to us and tugs on the fabric of my hoodie. I look at him with confusion, while he looks at me with sad puppy eyes.

"Maybe.. can you work with me.. instead..?" He mumbles softly and shyly.

"What do you mean, Jeongin?"

"I want to work with you.. instead of you and Chan hyung." He turns red.

"Well, I.. okay." I agree.

Jeongin looks automatically happier and bright once I agree to work with him. I tell Lee Chan to work with Jihoon instead and he agrees, so it left Jeongin and I at the table.

He stood beside me and left no gap between us. We were awkwardly silent, because none of us knew what to say to each other that would lift up the mood.

"Do you.. perhaps.. like Lee Chan hyung?" He gulps.

"No, I do not." I shake my head no.

"I think.. I think he likes you." Jeongin frowns.

"No, I'm like a little sister to him." I snicker.

"It doesn't seem like it, Y/N.." He mumbles.

"Cheer up. I promise you there's nothing going on between us." I give him an assuring smile.

He looks into my eyes and smiles brightly, slowly nodding his head. I can feel the butterflies come back in my stomach and my heart keeps on fluttering. I gulp, giving him a small smile in return.

"Carrot, carrot~~" Jeongin coos while looking at me.

I look at him with sarcastic disgust and he giggles softly, pinching my cheek.

"What's wrong with you?" I stare at him.

"Lee Chan hyung did it, so I wanted to do it too"

"Huh. So you're a copy cat?" I tease him.

"N-No! I thought you'd like it better if I was the one doing it.." he stutters shyly.

How cute of him. He was jealous.

At this point most of my feelings for him were gone, I managed to lose them in those three weeks because I really forced myself. I can't force feelings for him if they're not there anymore, that would be more hurtful to him more than just me lying so that he gets better.

I knew I couldn't fall for him again and regain those feelings back, because it would be the same loophole over again. From friends, to a relationship, to breaking up and becoming enemies again.

I really love him, I do, but I can't say I love him more than a best friend at this point. I just can't fall for him again, I know I can do it. He just needs to stop acting like a baby first, though. He knows it's my weakness.

"How's your fist?" I ask him.

"Better, I guess.." he shrugs.

"Don't do it again, please." I frown at him.

"I won't." He shakes his head.

"Are you sure? You've done it many times already," I said, skeptical.

"For you I'll try my hardest."