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Chapter 16

Once again I am where I left off. In the hospital. My mind is pondering and I can't move. My body is held down on a bed. I am wearing ankle and wrist bracelets. I'm going crazy and I can't seem to remember anything. I'm right where I belong.

The skinny doctor walks in and begins to mumble a light tune.

"Hello Ms. Jessica. How are you? I am here to give you an update on your-"

"Who's Jessica? That's not my name. My mom would never name me that. That sounds like an old grandma. Oh, and would you please explain to me why I am strapped into a bed. Please," my eyes start to form with tears.

"Yes, of course. That was just what I was going to say. You have done a great matter of self harm within the last hour or so. Due to this, you are left with a great amount of memory loss because of the loss of blood and the amount of time you were unconscious. You fell asleep as soon as we got you here. We were afraid you were going to wake up and go crazy because you were saying something about the voices in your head making you do it. You're name is Jessica, Jessica Sutley. You are 17 years old and you have lost all of the people in your life. We are very sorry to inform you this way. If you promise you will be calm, I will unstrap you. "

"Yes, yes sir," I state after a long moment of silence due to shock.

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The hospital that I was at, let me go soon enough. I learned my name, and that I was in a coma for a month. I had to have a form of transportation to my so called home so a young boy named Matthew came and picked me up. In the car ride, he decided to tell me his life story and how I knew him.

"So, Jessica. This is so hard to talk to you like this. You mean so much to me, and you can't even remember your own name let alone me. I met you when I was 2. Even then, your mom was gone. She left when you were born. You lived across the street from me and our parents were friends. I have been there for you since forever. When we both turned 5, we went on a vacation as one big family. You're dad drove his motorcycle and we were in our van. A semi cut across a median and crushed your dad. I was there. We grew up together and when I was 8, I moved and was forced to not talk to you. When I heard you were in the hospital the last time, I couldn't bear to leave again. I came and saw you and helplessly fell in love. You still get my heart racing each time I see you. You're gorgeous eyes and you're sweet little red cheeks. I will never stop being there for you and I will never stop choosing you. My mom made me leave your side after you healed. Four months later, I was able to come back and see you. That's when I found out I was able to live with you. We spent our entire first day together and it couldn't have been better. When you woke up the next day, you found me lifeless and cold. I was in a coma for close to a month and when I woke up all I wanted was you. When I was under, I heard your voice talking to me. You would come visit and say prayers and just talk to me like normal. Oh, how I miss your laugh. You're gorgeous, laugh. I adore you Jessica. And if you can't remember, that is okay. I will make you fall in love with me over and over again, each and every day for all of eternity. I will love you, forever and always. Because Jessie, you are my one and only. If you find someone else, that is okay because no matter what I will be here. You are the love of my life and nothing could change that. I love you Jessica," Matt spoke as I sat and let tears silently fall from my face.