The Youngest Halstead

Chapter 1

After a very long and tiring flight, I have finally made it back home. It feels right I finally feel whole for the first time in a long time. I walk slowly to the outside, after collecting my luggage, to the airport to the cold snowy street and breathe in the freezing cold Chicago wind blowing in my face, it really does feel right more than right it feels amazing.

Once I leave the airport I take an Uber to my apartment complex. " well this is my new home" I mumbled to myself. I stroll up to the elevator and press the number five. Once I arrive in my home I push the door wide open to see a dozen large boxes scattered around the living room I give a big sigh and walk into the apartment.

Then I decide I might as well start unpacking seems as though I don't have a clue where everything is. I start in the living room and did the bedroom and bathroom and gave up leaving the kitchen seems as though I wouldn't need much doing only food. I roll onto the couch and look at my phone and see the time 3:30 am " Oh My God I have been doing this for 4 and a half hours" I think to myself I don't know if that Is a good thing that I got most of it finished in one night or the fact that I didn't know it was even that time already.

I decided after about half an hour of scrolling through Instagram that I would finally get some rest seems as tho I have a big and emotional day tomorrow I am finally going to see my two brothers and father after 5 years of being away, I have butterflies in my stomach and not the good kind I don't know why I should be excited to see my family.

it's not like I never talked to them I stayed I'm contacted with them, well as much as they would allow me to, they weren't exactly pleased that I left especially Jay he was dreading the fact that I was leaving him, but I needed to leave, I could handle looking after my broken brother after him coming back from Afganistan and handle my emotions the fact that my mother had just died of cancer, well I could for the first 3 months and then it got too difficult, I don't even know if jay ever forgave me but he'll be okay might take a while but he'll get there he always does. My dad, on the other hand, wasn't really fussed just another person off the list of having to talk to he has always been selfish like that. And will he was living in New York for med school it would have made a difference
a difference in what would happen but he was still scared of me leaving and that I why I left with my boyfriend at the time Rylie.

I walked to my bathroom took my makeup off, took my hair out off the braids and throw it up in a messy bun then walked into my bedroom and put short shorts on and a large shirt on and climbed into bed. A couple of minutes later I had fallen into a deep sleep.

𝑭𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌:

5 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒈𝒐

"𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒅𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆"𝒋𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅
"𝒋𝒂𝒚 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒊 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆r𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒖𝒎 𝒊 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒊 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒎 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒗𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒐𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒊 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒊 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑 𝒊 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚, 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊 𝒂𝒎 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒃𝒚𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒖𝒑 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒊 𝒂𝒎 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒚𝒍𝒂𝒏 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒋𝒂𝒚" 𝒊 𝒔𝒂𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒚𝒆. 𝑱𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒓𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒔𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒆 "𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒖𝒎" 𝒋𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒏 𝒕𝒐𝒏 " 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒊 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏" 𝒊 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒅 "𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒈𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔 𝒊 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒊𝒎 𝒃𝒆𝒈𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆" "𝒋𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒊 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒊𝒈 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆 𝒊 𝒂𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚" 𝒊 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒑𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒋𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒉𝒖𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 " 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈, 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒆" 𝒑𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒖𝒈 𝒊 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒍𝒚 " 𝒊 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒋𝒂𝒚 𝒊 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒊 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆" " 𝒐𝒌𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒎 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊.. 𝒊 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒃𝒚𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉..𝒊𝒎 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆𝒅 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒆" 𝒋𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒔𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒊𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒐𝒓 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏. "𝒊𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒊𝒈 𝒃𝒓𝒐"

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𝚆𝚘𝚠 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚍 i hope 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝.

𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚝𝚘𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚊 𝚋𝚎𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚖 𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚢 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚢 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚊𝚜𝚗𝚝 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚘𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚒𝚝 𝚒 𝚊𝚖 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐.

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