serendipity x shawn mendes

thirty one

• andrea •

Shawn: I keep reading our old messages.

Shawn: Even the ones on Instagram. back when u didn't give me ur number

Shawn: I really like you.

Shawn: You made it okay

Shawn: without even trying to

Shawn: we used to make a lot of plans, I realized that after reading our texts

Shawn: We planned to sing for each other.

Shawn: & to go ice skating one day because you have never been ice skating

Andrea: shawn seriously shut the fuck up you're blowing up my phone.

xxx

"Quit moping around!" Samantha tells me from across the lunch table, all snuggled up under Matt's arm. They have grown a lot closer while I was too distracted by Shawn to notice. "At least tell us what's wrong."

I shrug. "It's nothing."

Matthew rolls his eyes. "What happened with Shawn?" he asks. I wish they didn't know me too well.

I think about it for a second? What even was it that happened? I feel like saying "he didn't text me back on my birthday" is not a very good explanation. Now that I think about it, was it really a big deal? Yes, it is. It is a big deal to me. It was a lot more than him not texting me to scare me away from our almost-relationship.

So I just shrug. "I don't want to get into a relationship."

"We both know there is more to it than that," Matthew says, "but if you don't wanna tell us, then fine. Just know that you're not helping yourself by not talking to him."

"You don't know what is going to help me." I reply, staring at the table.

"At least keep being friends with him or something." Sam adds.

"Yeah, okay." I mumble.

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I dragged myself inside the house, finally home from school. I dropped my backpack on the floor as soon as I got inside, and collapsed on the couch.

"Mom what's for dinner?!" Nash yells and I sigh. Why does he have to be so loud?

I decide to drag my exhausted body up to my room to take a nap. While I'm laying in bed, surrounded by pillows and blankets, I think about what Matt and Samantha were saying earlier.

They were right, I hate not talking to Shawn so much. I get out my phone.

I thought long and hard about what to text him.

To- Shawn: hey

Yes, I sat here for thirty minutes thinking about what to say and I ended up going with 'hey'.

Now, I wait.

My phone goes off instantly. I guess I don't have to wait.

Shawn: Hey

Now what?

Andrea: idk what to say now

Shawn: Well there's gotta be a reason you texted me

Andrea: yeah... i just wanted to talk to you

Shawn: Oh

Andrea: yeah

Shawn: Well

Andrea: nevermind. bye

xxx