Crazy Beautiful Life

Intro

Happy new year, to all my readers:

This is a journal, in high detail on my day. It will be negative. If its positive then it was a pretty great day.

My name, its Gabby, personally I dont like it, but hey what can yah do?

I have to write every single day, before 12:00 other wise I have to eat a banana. My best friend(s) are writing a journal too. But some of them don't think these rules apply to them...
Mia: shes the outcast... But shes my outcast. Shes very creative, and a sad person. We went to the same school since 1st grade. We knew we existed but were never friends... until 7th grade... when she needed a middle school, and it happened to be the same one. Shes definitely different, shes quiet, scared of fucking up; and shes short, Mexican, does her nails perfectly, has a journal on here... Mia: short, curly (not too curly) dark brownish hair, dense (no not fat, at all shes like pressed into a little body, and its perfect) she has large theighs, man i want them. And she has long fingers, again i want them. She wears thick eyeliner that suits her face and wears contacts.
Kaija: I met her at a birthday party, we went to the same school, but i have anxiety with certain people so she was one. Then we started talking and she invited me to her house on july 4, 2014 and i slept over, it kick started from there... dont get me started.  Every weekend, it was my house or her house. We jammed out to her weird ass music in her dull red, white brown room, with her almost blind, adorable toothless doggy. She took my to a water park, where I met Lizzie, but wait for her back story. Then it was 8th grade, and i needed a group to belong in. Kaija is someone you would call poplular, minus the poplular.  We had our up and downs because each of us had to be right.....

She has soft, shoulder length brown hair, same bra size... and she has fucked up bottom teeth, that are perfect for her, they literally scream kaija. Perfect. Shes also your little hippie, but fuck the weed ;D shes pretty tall, i think so... youll be hearing about her alot... i usually have jealousy problems with her soooooooo youll need popcorn for my wattpad.
Lizzie: Kaija took me to a water park, and lizz was in my class last year (7 grade) i needed to ride this scary ride, and not do it by myself, so she volunteered with me... it started from there. We never really hung out but i went to her birthday party, or had slumber parties with kaija, and went on omegle and got ourselves kicked off cuz i pulled down my pants.... whoops. We hung out on Halloween, it had to be the best Halloween ever. And she was the only one who saw my cuts in person, so she should feel special. (Yes i do cut, on my hip)

Her mom is very, funny. I mean, idk if i shuld say this but itll make sense if i do: when her mom gets drunk, she doesnt know what the hell chapstick is and then she takes off her bra for the world to see them maracas... its happened to me. Lizzie has brown hair, but it changes from red, to black to off black to brown. Its pretty rad. And at the moment she has braces, and her face looks like a cat.awwwwwwwww And we have the same taste in guys, but opposite taste in music. Shes kinda short and has had cutting problems in the past. But shes so fucking funny i just wanna pee my self everytime. I love her haha
Mady: shes really weird. We both have the same anxiety problems and when we're with friends we dont really get along, but when its just us, ee connect reallllllll good. Me and mady have inside jokes like no other and everyone pushes her to the side. And i feel really bad abiut it. And sometimes i forget that shes human too, and i hurt her. But she forgives me, for like the thousandth time.

She has red, shoulder length hair, shes fucking talk as fuck. Ummmm she always smells the same, in a good way. She is really skinny, has a brother thst masturbates non stop lol jk. And she sends great snapchats. We each have old parents but hers are cooler so.
Caitlynn

She's tall and has natural blonde hair that's kind of long. And it's wavy. She's like the reason I don't want people to be completely sad. Because we'll I don't know her as much, but she was like depressed and blah blah blah and she was so nice and fun and funny, she didn't deserve to feel bad. And she has megan and alot of friends and we don't talk as much but we talk at least (on break) once a week and everyday at school.
Megan

She is a Philippino girl, and she's like shorter than me probably 5'5 or something and ove known her for three years. Her parents got a divorce and I was kind of the only friend she had and she wasn't as open to regular things because she was hone schooled. Then in sixth grade we went to the same shool and she met caitlynn and they hit it off. So yeah

She has long hair and thick eyeliner and a big booty. She's also stubborn but we have good times.
Jacob he's the weirdest person ever. He has brown hair and we used to be tighter than a. Knot until he didn't trust me. Nothing is the same
Corbin some one I've liked forever. And i know he will never ever like me.

He's really tall and blonde and has braces and he's just perfect

But yet, I'm nothing.

I honestly think I'm nothing. I try and try and try and nothing works . I hate life. I hope everyday I don't wake up. I don't Want this lofe. Because I don't deserve it. And I see no happiness at the moment. I usually ruin everything. Which is unfortunate on my part. And I'm annoying. I feel bad for those
Today

I woke up and then got ready to leave. Then we got home and caitlynn and kaija are spending the night. And megan too and we just had fun. It was chill. Although I know I'm bugging people. I just kind of want to not be here. I'm almost positive they're all done with me. But then again they arent? Idk

I haven't talked to mia in a while though. Okay well I'll talk to you tomorrow.

1/1/15 10:37PM