you are my secret -a forbidden love story ✔︎

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At supper/Draco's POV:

"Love is hard work and hard work sometimes hurts!"

It's still incredible that Hermione and I kissed.  I always thought I was her worst enemy and now, all of a sudden, we kissed. Not that I didn't enjoy kissing her, it's just unbelievable. She's such a great kisser and our kiss was the best kiss I ever had and probably the happiest thing I ever felt. Anyway, I can't tell anyone except Blaise we kissed and that's extreme torture to me. I wish I could walk around with her through the halls and just kiss her without getting any strange looks by our fellow students. I wish I could hold her hands while walking to DADA. Honestly, I'd do anything to be allowed to marry her. But I can't. She is a muggle-born, mother and father already gave everything to find the perfect pure-blood for me. They just don't understand that no one could ever replace Hermione. I guess we should make the best out of our situation, although it will break my heart to marry Astoria at the end of this school year. And hers probably too, and the last thing I ever wanted is her getting hurt.

I didn't talk that much after what happened at the Astronomy Tower, so Blaise took his time to attempt talking to me: "Mate, you okay? You are just a bit -er absent."

"I'm fine, don't worry", I answered with a faked smile.

"Well, if you want to talk, we can talk after supper."

"It would be great, thank you, Blaise." In my point of view, the hall wasn't the best place to have a private talk with your best friend.

While we ate some vegetables and chicken, my eyes squinted occasionally to the Gryffindor table in order to see Hermione. She was sitting there, making funny faces with her friends like nobody's watching. Almost every time she caught me staring at her, she looked away. Moreover, she was trying to ignore me. I could tell she was annoyed by me and my piercing looks at her, anyway, she smiled slightly every time she looked away. Unfortunately, she never looked at me directly. Maybe I shouldn't have told her to keep us a secret.

Apart from that, Astoria started to get suspicious. Maybe she saw how I was looking in Hermione's direction.

"Draco, what's wrong?", she asked.

"Ugh, just having a bad day", I explained to her. Might have added that she was the reason for my bad day, but that would have been too harsh.

"Okay, whatever. Honey, your parents invited me to stay at the Manor for the holidays. We'll be finally able to spend more than an afternoon together, I'm already looking forward to the holidays!", she spoke tartly.

Her emphasis was definitely on the word 'we'. For almost a second, I thought she was about to slap me, but she gave me a kiss on my cheek instead. Furthermore, she was kissing my whole face again. Ugh, her lipgloss left many pink-colored marks on my face, which felt like a Draco-And-I-Are-Engaged-So-Leave-Him-Alone-Hermione-sign. No doubt Astoria was the queen of acting passive-aggressive.

After supper, Blaise led me towards the lake without talking to me. Suddenly, he cleared his throat and looked at me.

"Draco, we are alone now. Tell me what's wrong.Now."

He didn't look worried anymore like he did at supper, rather like I spilled ink on his shirt. Certainly, he was bloody pissed off by me, nevertheless, this doesn't justify his bad mood.

"Don't go crazy after I told you what's wrong, okay?", I soothed him. "Hermione and I kissed. And as if this isn't crazy enough, the girl whom I talked to was Hermione too."

Blaise took his time answering, the only thing that came out of his mouth was a silenced squeal. To be honest, he almost seemed to be more excited about the news than I was.

However, he breathed in and out one more time, probably to calm and whispered: "I know we are alone here, nevertheless I do not want to risk detention for being outside after supper, you know. Anyway: YOU KISSED HER! YOU FINALLY KISSED HER! I totally knew you would kiss her sooner or later, but YOU KISSED HER! At all events that have happened this school year, your kiss is my bloody favorite! Congrats, Mate!"

Additionally, he patted my shoulder and grinned happily.

"Yes, I know. It's still unbelievable. The thing that concerns me is Astoria. What if she finds my feelings for Hermione? What if she finds out that I kissed Hermione and Hermione kissed me? Would she tell mother and father?"

My forehead formed wrinkles of concern already. It would be a nightmare to experience my parent's reaction. Fortunately, father is still in Azkaban, but what if he sends me a Howler to Hogwarts? This would be so embarrassing!

"Don't worry. If I have too, I'll distract Astoria from seeing you every time you and Granger meet. And let me give you some advice: Take the risk or lose the chance."

Hello everyone *waves*! Here is chapter 18 :))
I hope you enjoyed this chapter, I wanted to reflect Draco's feelings in this one. Therefore, I decided to include a bit of the friendship between Draco and Blaise. Did you enjoy this chapter? If yes, feel free to leave a comment or even vote for this chapter, but only if you want to. Thank you so much for all the love you gave me, WE HIT 600 READS YESTERDAY! :))
PS: I really need your advice: should I add more passages to the dialogues? I'm not pretty sure if the dialogues are confusing to read