BLOOM [BrightWin]

Rejection

(please excuse my bad memory, I left a chapter! No wonder I felt sth missing)

"Light honey, dinner is ready!”
Win shouts, calling his son. He is serving food on the table when Light offers to help him preparing the table.

Win chuckles,
“well thank you. Can you get papa the utensils?” “Alright papa!”
“oh, what we have tonight papa?!” Light sits himself properly as Win is filling their plates with plain rice.

“Tada! I made your favorite chicken with cashew nuts and tom yum goong! There is also Mango Bingsu for dessert.”Win laughs briefly when Light jumps excitedly in his seat. He is very much happy with tonight’s dinner.

During their simple dinner of talking about each other’s day, the front door is unlocked.

A dark shadow of a man creeps into the house, tip toeing. The dimmed living room helps him to hide his big self. He observes quietly a fine beautiful man and a giggly little boy in the dining room. Both are happy talking and laughing with each other, spending time eating dinner together.
The scene displays in front of his eyes warms his chest.

Unknowingly, he also giggles most of the time listening to funny stories from both his favorite story tellers. The sound of high pitch sequels of happiness is a heaven’s voice to him. The man decides to not bother those two heaven’s angels and rest on the sofa. He closes his eyes, paying his full attention to listen to those angelic voices until he falls asleep.

“Spiderman! Spiderman!” Light impatiently runs into the living room to watch the new episodes of Spiderman series.

“Papa let’s watch Spider-“ the little boy sentence end with a loud screech.

“Light! What’s wrong honey SHIYYYA!”
Win curses out loud to the creature on his sofa. There is a moment of silence in the room.

“DADDY?!” “Bright?” Both Win and Light call simultaneously in confusion. They are loss of words with Bright presence in the house at the early evening. It is only 9 pm.

Frantically, Light shakes his dad to wake him up.
“I’m up I’m up” Bright groans with his hoarse sleepy voice.
“DADDY! DADDY!” Light exclaims in absolute delight. He jumps his little body on top of Bright’s muscular one. Light is suffocating Bright with tight hugs and snuggles.

Bright automatically tickles Light on the spot. A method he has always use to tease his very ticklish son.
However, Win’s expression is unreadable, opposite to his son. He stands still in his place, trying to digest the situation.

“Daddy, you’re” Light starts,
“home.” Win finishes the sentences to himself.

Bright and Light walk hand in hand to the bedroom after Bright’s dinner. Light opens the door and make a way for Bright to enter his room. When Bright steps into Light’s room, he silently observes the room. Win is right, it’s been a long time he stops tucking Light to bed.

Light’s toddler bed upgrades to a bigger space of a single bed. No trace of Barneys or Tom and Jerry, now most all the space occupied by superheroes especially Ironman and Spiderman. A shelf of toys turns into a mini library of academic books and some kind of comics.

“daddy?” Light asks as he sees his dad stands still in the middle of room.
“hey buddy. Come on, you have school tomorrow.” Bright arranges the pillows at every inch of Light sides. Bright remembers that Light need pillows guarding him through the night or he thinks a ghost might sleep beside him.

“Thank you, dad.” Light stares at him, smiling from ear to ear.
“you are most welcome. Good night son.” Bright places a long kiss on Light’s forehead.
“I love daddy” Light hugs Bright one last time before letting go of Bright that night.
“I love you too, so much Light. And I am proud of you always.” They exchange beautiful genuine smile.

“dad, you will come to my birthday party right?” the curious little boy asks.

Goodnight kisses and hugs appease Bright’s missing to his son. Bright prays his son will not be having a nightmare tonight.

Win is applying his night skincare routine when the door of his bedroom squeaks open. His heart skips a beat and his body tensed but not in a bad way. Win realizes that tonight is the first time he and Bright would actually sleep on the bed together, at the same time.
Before, it has always been Win sleeping alone, accompanied by dark night’s coldness.

He hears Bright’s soft coughs from behind him, trying to get his attention. Through the reflection on the mirror, Win notices Bright is fidgeting, staring hard on the floor. He has his hands in pockets, lips purse into this line and making a big gulps of saliva. He seems too nervous. Win almost cackles looking at the nervous Bright.

“what time is the party? where is it??” Bright finally asks Win, Win somehow is surprised.

“5 o’clock. Our house. The kids will be having some games then cut the cake. Maybe around 9 in the evening everything will be done.”

“alright. So Saturday, 5pm, our house.” Bright nods his head, tries to remember.
“yeah” Win repeated.

It is a bit awkward between them. After so long being left on their own, they become clueless.

“are you going to sleep now?” Bright tries to break the tension.

“yeah.” Win shortly answers. “cool. I’m going to shower.”

“yeah okay, cool.” 

Bright grabs his towel and quickly enters the bathroom. He leans back against the white door and takes a deep breath. 

“Ah, stupid. What is wrong with me? it’s just Win outside.” Bright taps his chest a few times.

“shiyyyaaaaa! Oh come on it’s just Bright right there.” When is persuading his rapid heart to calm down.

it’s just Bright, yeah it just Bright 

Win keeps repeating in his head. It’s just Bright in the bathroom, showering. It’s just Bright slipping into the bed beside him. It’s just Bright kissing him goodnight, and it’s just Bright who is hugging him to sleep, pressing their body close.

It’s just Bright.

“Fuck, it is Bright.” He cannot believe these are happening for real. After months of sleeping alone in the bed, tonight, he is not. Not only blanket keeps him warm but a human body, sitting so close behind him, radiating warmness to him.
That person is Win’s favorite human.

Unknowingly, a single tear left win’s eyes. He is too overwhelmed by Bright’s sudden affection, almost causing him a heart attack. The arms holding him tighten around his slim muscle body.

“Win, forgive me for hurting you and Light. There are times where I took both of you for granted. Maybe you’re right all along, I care about my works a bit too much. But I swear to God I never love anything more than you and Light. I really love you. I always do my love.”

Win bites his quivering lips. He is astounded by Bright’s honesty. 

“Please don’t lose hope on me. I promise to change, I promise to care and love you forever. I made mistakes yes, but please stay and guide me. I love you Metawin, and never once I imagine to stop loving you.”

Bright’s body shudders in fear. Now, a streak of tear cascades down Bright’s face as he chokes on his words.

However, his tight embrace around Win is unhooked. Bright recognizes Win’s larger hands and slender fingers grabs on his own, pulling off. 

At that exact moment, Bright swallows the bitter rejection from Win. Bright try to reason himself, is it his own fault that Win might have given up on him. But he wouldn’t let go of Win easily.

Bright voluntarily moves his arms completely off Win before Win do it himself. Immediately, Bright turns around to face the wall.

“I understand, it’s okay if you push me away for now. But I want you to know that I am not letting you go. And I will fix myself for you” Bright said determined. The silence room is deafening Bright’s ears, he is anxious before Win speaks,

“I’m sorry Bright.” Rejection.
To Bright’s ears it sounds like another rejection.

Right now, the silence room is drowning him and Win’s apology suffocates him. Now Bright knows what he’s been afraid of.
He is afraid of losing his husband, his lover.

Bright is afraid of losing Win.

I just found out I left a chapter!😓 The story is still the same but I feel some lacking in the storyline hence, I decided to put it in. I might not be able to update more frequently atm because I am very busy with uni's online classes (never knew it is much more hell). But I'll make sure to update as soon as possible after my online classes stop.