Dancing on My Own

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Alec stared outside his window Monday morning holding a cup of coffee close as he nervously chewed his bottom lip. He squeezed his eyes closed tightly as his mind kept going back to Saturday when Magnus had stood up to his father. He ran through every word Magnus had said after everyone had gone to bed. He pressed his forehead against the cool windowpane and let out a breath. He must have been deep in his thoughts because he hadn't even noticed Magnus park and come inside but he gently touched Alec's shoulder "Alexander?" Alec took a second before murmuring "good morning Magnus." Alec tilted his head up to look at Magnus offering a smile and Magnus stroked his cheek. "We have a lot to do before meeting with your father. First, we should go get you a ring that actually fits then I have paperwork for both of us to sign. Pictures and then your fathers. I figured we could get breakfast on the way. Now get up and get dressed. As much as I love you in these sweats I do not think they are exactly appropriate." Alec closed his eyes taking a sip of his coffee before getting up to get ready. He slipped on the nicest pair of pants he had and a simple black shirt. He grabbed everything he needed and left a note on the counter for his mother knowing she and Max were going to spend the day together. He stayed silent after getting into Magnus's car while Magnus chatted away about little things that needed to be done but all Alec could think about was what if Magnus and he are making a mistake. What if this breaks them? He quickly dismissed the thoughts to try and listen to what Magnus was saying and Magnus glanced his way. "I know something is bothering you, Alexander." Alec shook his head and looked over at Magnus "It's silly. Don't worry about it." Magnus snorted and shook his head "nice try. Now, what's up?" Alec sighed softly looking back out the window as he spoke softly. "I don't want to go through with this and have you despise me later on. I don't want to go through with this and always be constantly worried about what if this or what if that. I just don't want us to be like my.." Magnus parked the car and grabbed Alec's face gently "look at me Alexander." Alec looked at him worry written across his face and Magnus shook his head. "I could never resent you or anything of that sort. I am not doing this just because I am interested in you Alec I am doing this because I feel the connection we have. I saw you Saturday and I haven't seen you in maybe 18 hours and yet I wanted to see you again. I didn't just want this to give someone who needs help the help they need. I wanted to do this to make a point Alec. You have spent your whole life being the support for everyone except for yourself. Me? I grew up with a businessman as  father. he adopted me when my biological mother passed. I was 6. He raised me to be strong and to always succeed in everything I did. I have been following his footsteps for most of my life Alexander. I have my own sense of style. My own personality but there's always a piece of him in everything I do. This though. Our relationship. This is all me. This is everything to do with me and my future as well as yours. I had no siblings. No mother after she passed and I spent one night around your family as dysfunctional as the night might have been and yet that one night opened my eyes to so much more. You told your father this wasn't a fling. I believe you. I haven't ever doubted you so please don't doubt me when I tell you that what we do today will not hurt us. yes, we are doing things backwards but I mean Alexander what about our relationship thus far has been normal. I was an ass to you multiple times and yet you still wanted me. So take a breath for me and put on that classic Alec Lightwood confidence I know you have on. Besides I would much rather marry a man today who doesn't have wrinkles." He winked and smoothed Alec's forehead which caused Alec to smile tilting his head into Magnus's touch.

Alec still stayed silent most of the morning trying to ease his mind and Magnus was leaning against the counter at his restaurant discussing something with who he assumed was someone that worked for Magnus. Alec smiled softly when Magnus came over with the man and gestured to him. "Alexander this is my lawyer and an old friend of mine Ragnor. Ragnor this is my Alexander." Alec held out his hand nodding as Ragnor shook it gently and Magnus took a seat gesturing to the papers Ragnor set in front of Alec. "We need you to sign these Alexander. Simply stating that this restaurant will be ours for as long as we are legally married but if we should have a falling out and we break things off the property remains mine and the bakery remains yours." Alec nodded looking through the papers and he glanced up. "What about the house?" Magnus hummed softly "if something happened to us you would remain the owner of the house. If something were to happen in the event that I am no longer around my property defaults to be yours." Alec pushed the papers away shaking his head "can I have a minute?" Ragnor raised an eyebrow at Magnus and cleared his throat "Mr. Lightwood I am happy to walk you through everything if you are confused about anything." Alec looked at Magnus ignoring what Ragnor had said. "I said can I have a minute, please?" Magnus nodded reaching over to take the papers and squeezed Alec's hand before gesturing for Ragnor to follow him. Alec rubbed his face and took a deep breath picking up the rings on the table after a minute and headed to find Magnus. When he did he held them out. "I don't want these. I don't want to jump headfirst into this in this way. I don't want my name on your restaurant because it's yours. I don't want my house if it means you giving up your loft and I don't want today to be so formal please Magnus. I want to..I don't now have the romance. I want a ring that means something, not a ring that looks flashy it's just not me and I am sorry it's not me. I am not the type of man to need all this..I want today to be about us ok. If we are doing this then it's us. None of this tight schedule makes appearances for everyone nonsense." Ragnor cleared his throat and Alec grabbed Magnus's hands and instead of a verbal reply he got the softest kiss on the cheek. Magnus squeezed his hands before walking Ragnor out and Alec leaned against the wall staring at the papers on the counter. "Alexander?" Alec tilted his head to look at Magnus. "Follow me." Alec watched as Magnus walked away before moving to follow him. Magnus leads Alec into the back office and closed the door gently gesturing for Alec to take a seat. Magnus sat on the edge of the desk in front of Alec after opening a draw and grabbing a small box from it. "I know it is a lot at once and I know all of this isn't exactly small and I am telling you to be responsible for it with me. I might not be able to lessen how much this is to take in and sign your name to but I might be able to fix one thing." He looks at the box in his hands before opening it and showing Alec. Inside was a small sterling silver ring with the smallest blue stone on it. "The stone was my mothers. My father had it set in this ring years ago and eventually gave it to me but t was too large so I have kept it here ever since. I felt it would include her in my success in some way. Anyways she would have wanted this to go to someone who loved me even a fraction of the amount she loved me." Magnus gently pulled the ring out and took Alec's hand slipping it onto his finger smiling softly when it was an almost perfect fit. "Its a lot Alexander but this can ground you when you feel overwhelmed." Alec looked at the ring on his finger and then back at Magnus eyes wide with shock and Magnus stroked his cheek. "When it gets overwhelming ground yourself and remember I will always be there. No matter what." Alec hugged Magnus burying his face wanting to freeze this moment for just a moment longer before they went back into the world to deal with everything. He knew one thing. At least they would face it together.