ᴄʜᴏɪᴄᴇ: ʟᴏᴠᴇ & ʟᴏʏᴀʟᴛʏ

Better than your ex : 2017 (Part 3)

<2017>

Y/n

"I want to marry my other half... one day," I said absently while crossing my arms over my chest. I looked over to the sea calm scenery in front of me and inhaled some fresh air which made me relax a bit despite my mind being disturbed by so many things. I parked my car here on the seaside after driving around with my big sister, Irene Bae.

"Of course, lil sis. Me too... I wanna marry my boyfriend and spend the rest of my life with him." Irene replied and smiled happily without looking at me.

Irene and I hung out today. Choose to be relaxed while driving around aimlessly. It's like one of our siblings' bonding time and routine now. It helps us to open and rest our minds even just for a while. Trying to treat our tired hearts by bringing us away from our busy lives. That's the most important one.

I'm sitting on my car's hood slightly. Irene actively captured the beautiful scenery in front of us with her camera. Then suddenly she pointed her camera lens direction toward me. Slowly she puts down her camera to look at me properly. She looked at me weirdly.

"Why do you look so sad, lil sis?" I looked in her direction. I smiled at her before replying to her, "Nothing. I'm just... worried about something." She approached me after grabbing the drinks inside the car that she bought before both of us came here.

She handed it to me. "Who? Which one makes you feel like this?" I looked down at my drink without opening it. I kept my mouth shut but I knew that I needed to let it out.

"I love Lisa..." my sister looked at me while smiling teasingly. "Okay?" Irene smirked. But I ignored the look on her face. I'm sighing softly.

"I love her... so much. I can see my future with her. I trust her. I know that I don't want to let her go. I want her. I want to tie the knot with her. I want to grow old with her. I want to have a child with her. I wanna protect her... Damn, I'm in love with her." I confessed while smiling unconsciously.

I remembered the way Lisa smiled at me, the sounds of her laughing, her giggling. Her warmth. Her way of showing me her love, her care, her understanding. Her eyes and attention always made me think that it was only for me. She is almost perfect.

I don't want to let her go.

"I thought she's only your close friend?" I looked up at my sister. "That's what I told myself too. But... before I realized it... I love her... more than just a friend." Irene nodded knowingly. "Then what makes you seem can't be honest with yourself?" I let out a sigh. "My heart beats for her... but my mind... Jennie is still disturbing my mind, especially on the night." Irene grabbed my right shoulder and massaged it lightly.

"Follow your heart, I guess? Whatever you think makes you happy, Y/n. You know... everything in your life, it's your choice. So think wisely, and think further about the future. Sometimes in life, you should take a risk to feel alive." I laughed a bit before putting my hand on top of Irene's hand on my shoulder.

"Thank you. I appreciate that advice, sis." then I went to her front and pulled her into a hug. I hugged her tightly.

"Thank you," I whispered again. Irene patted my back gently, only humming in response.