ᴄʜᴏɪᴄᴇ: ʟᴏᴠᴇ & ʟᴏʏᴀʟᴛʏ

Better than your ex : 2017 (Part 5)

<2017>

Y/n

I opened my apartment door tiredly. I'm so tired because of my schedule for today. I have to be everywhere just for meetings. And I miss Lisa so much. I had to miss a lunch date with her today since I was busy.

Hell. I made my way to take a bath and planned to go to sleep for a while before I decided to continue my work again. Even at home, I have to finish my work.

Hell. After I'm done, I'm wearing my baby pink color pajamas and lying on my stomach comfortably on top of my bed. But someone rang my doorbell when I was almost bringing myself to sleep.

Fuck that person. I just ignored it. But it won't stop so I pushed myself up and proceeded to the door which I forgot to look through the camera's door. I opened my door wide with an annoyance.

"Hey, Y/n." great. Just great.

"Jen? Do you know what time is it?" she nodded and answered me. "Yes, almost 9 pm and I'm here to see you." I rubbed my face gently using my left hand.

This woman truly didn't want to give up, huh?

So I looked at her while folding my arms over my chest. "Why? What do you want?" she just smiled and pushed me so that she could come inside. I turned to her when she left me in front of my door. I saw the way she swayed her firm ass sexily.

Well, fuck her. I looked away and took a deep breath. I followed her after I closed and locked my door then found her sitting on my couch. Crossing her legs, looking at me like she wanna eat me out until I'm hers again. Okay, that was kind of extra if I applied it like that but that's what I felt when she looked at me right now.

I cleared my throat before I asked her again. "So—" but she beats me on it. "I need you. It's... for the last time, I swear. After this, I won't disturb you again." I tilted my head a bit. "Please?" she pleaded. "What is it? What do you need from me?" She stood up then approached me making me back away a little but she grabbed the hem of my pajamas quickly.

Bring me closer to her. "Make love with me tonight. Hold me like I'm the one that you love the most. Make me feel special again. Please?" she whispered since she was so close to my lips and hugged my waist gently. "Just tonight," she whispered again after putting her head on my chest. I don't know what to do.

This is too risky. I know I shouldn't do this especially when I just got my ass into a new relationship. I don't want to betray Lisa. No way. So I pushed Jennie away from me by wrapping my fingers around her forearms. I made her look at me properly.

"I can't... I have a girlfriend, Jen... I don't want to betray her trust like this... so I won't do this... I'm sorry." I confessed truthfully making her frowning and shocked. "Since when?", I shook my head and told myself, you shouldn't feel guilty. You shouldn't feel that, Y/n.

"Last week," I told her. I saw she clenched her fists. "Why didn't you tell me?" she asked angrily. I'm sighing. "Why should I? And... Jennie, I did tell you... about my feelings for you, right? There's nothing we can do about it... I love someone else now... I truly love her... so, please... I'm sorry, Jen." Jennie looks so disappointed and sad. She ran through her hair using her fingers softly while shaking her head lightly in disbelief.

She didn't look at me and turned her back to me. After a minute of silence, she asked me coldly. "Who? Who's your girlfriend now?" I shut my mouth. I don't want to tell her, I don't know why. "Fucking tell me, Y/n." she glared at me with her eyes that already welled up with her tears, threatening to fall onto her cheek. She's shaking a bit because of how she's trying to control herself from not crying and maybe hitting me.

Jennie

*click, bang* I turned to look who in the world was that easy coming inside Y/n's apartment. That was when I saw Lisa, she was holding a black plastic bag in her hand. She was frowning deeply when she saw me. "What is she doing here, honey?" did she just call Y/n... what?

Y/n made her way to Lisa and grabbed her shoulders. She's whispering something to Lisa. "And you let her in? That easy?" Lisa sounds jealous, so jealous. Almost like a jealous girlfriend that's mad. Oh. It was Lisa. Y/n's new girlfriend. So that's true. At first, I thought Y/n's mom was bluffing about Lisa's position in Y/n's life. So that's true as fuck. She's the one that Y/n loves now.

I saw that Y/n brought Lisa carefully into the kitchen. I'm just sitting my ass down back on the couch. All I wanted tonight was Y/n's last warmth, love, and attention before I had the strength to let her go and move on to marry Han. Just like what my mom wants. But even this, I can't have it anymore because of Lisa. I just want to feel special with Y/n for the last time.

Fuck. Fuck my life. I stood up from the couch absently. Damn, I can feel how broken my heart was. It made me dizzy and wanted to puke so badly. It hurts so much.

I moved my legs unwillingly to leave Y/n's apartment but not before when I saw Y/n and Lisa kissing. They were so in love and it hurts me so bad. So I went out of Y/n's apartment and I knew this was gonna be the last time for me to meet Y/n again. I'm gonna marry Han, for my mom's happiness and my loyalty to my mom.

Lisa

"Baby? Calm down... it's not like I'm doing anything with her." Y/n said desperately. I just stood there while putting my hands on the island to support myself. Trying to calm down and think positively. My back was facing her.

"If I didn't come here tonight, are you not going to do anything with her? For real? I know how your feelings towards her, Y/n. I saw everything through your past relationship with her." I said while trying not to cry. I turned to her when she wanted to hug me from behind. I put my hands on her chest and stared straight into her eyes cause those eyes never lie. I'm debating with myself whether I should ask her or not.

"What is it, baby? You can ask me." Y/n held my hands on her chest and kissed it while patiently waiting for my questions. I felt that my jaw was shaking lightly because I was afraid to ask her.

What if she said yes? That's gonna hurt me a lot. So I'm scared. "Baby? I love you. Only you. Not anyone else. Not even Jennie. Only you, Lisa. Trust me." she whispered while caressing my waist gently after she put my hands on her shoulders.

She leaned forward and kissed me tenderly. I kissed her back and wrapped my arms around her neck. I pulled away from our kiss and buried my face in the crook of her neck. Inhaled her scents, it made me kind of calm down.

"Do you still love her? Even just a bit, Y/n. You should be honest with me." I asked insecurely. She's caressing my head and back softly. She chuckled and shook her head a bit, "No baby. I'm done with her. The one that I love now is you." she whispered and hugged me more.

I hope so, Y/n.

end of better than your ex: 2017:)

I'm so sorry cause it's gonna hurt you if we continue this, so do you still want me to continue?

Are you sure?

To be continued🧸
I guess?
-B